How are you today thread (trigger warning)

Hi LittleMie crew,

Things sound really hard right now. I think you got triggered and your system is kind of going in different directions trying to get safe. It's important to work together ok? Sometimes you have to stop running and just pick a place to be and make that safe. We run outside sometimes and sometimes we run inside our heads and make bad decisions.

Just trying to help ok? We want you to be alright.

Iain

Thank you birdsong, thank you Iain your words are always helpful. My boss called me today and asked to see me. She is lovely. She said she had been worried about me all night and could not accept my resignation until I was more stable. The woman Little Mie spoke to yesterday had phoned boss and said that 'M has been in and handed in her notice except it wasn't her it was somebody else'. (We have such mixed feelings about this. Little Mie is actually terribly excited about this, the adults not so great and we have one very critical voice we don't hear too often that is really angry.) I was able to explain a little to my boss, not that she was prying she just wanted to know that the person she thought we were was ok......she wanted to know if a doctor could give 'me' something to fix it she also knew we live alone so wanted to know we were safe. What a great boss. So I guess we are kind of out at work although we don't think we will go back. Looks like we will be back hiding in the house for a while. It will probably do us good.

That sounds like a really caring and awesome boss. Hang in there and in the end decide what is best for you.

I have the same thoughts as ShawTrav. That you may have a really understanding boss and is there an opportunity here to create a work environment that works for you and your system. Work is hard for a lot of us and having compassion in the work place isn't all to common.

That said I dont remember the details, sorry. But if you feel like it take the time to chat it out here.

LittleMie wrote:The woman Little Mie spoke to yesterday had phoned boss and said that 'M has been in and handed in her notice except it wasn't her it was somebody else'.

Hm. That's actually kind of awesome. That's two people who "get" it: the woman Little Mie spoke to and the boss. It must have been hard for the woman to make that call and say something as weird as "It was her only it wasn't her." Wouldn't you be scratching your head if you didn't know that is exactly what DID is like?

enough with the ######6 nightmares already.

I hate bad dreams. for ###$ sake

Hi LittleMie,

Pretty good boss. She's really trying to help. Sounds like your system is upset. Maybe not a great time to make a big decision. Usually when we do we wish we hadn't later.

Colin

Beccabee - we hear you about the nightmares.

For me it's facing the nightmare that helps and going against the grain of the dream if that makes any sense at all. If I am supposed to run away, I don't, I run towards the threat. I've had nightmares so many times that now I shrug them off and just tell my brain, "That's all you got? You can do better..." and then I fall back to sleep and do just fine after that. Either way they suck though and I feel for ya.

Yuk nightmares. Can be left with the imprint of a nightmare all day. There fear of going to sleep is almost as bad as the fear when waking up afterwards. Hang in there Beccabees.

We are feeling a strange tranquility - well not strange - docs this morning, been prescribed a small does of as required diazepam - feels like first respite in a continuous storm. We have got the washing done and eaten some food and all is quiet inside. I know this is just temporary, but for once am going to take advantage and go with it even if we know the merry go round will start again at some point. Thanks everyone for you good words over past few days.

We are getting a bit better...
Being prescribed Reboxetine, so more vital and can get out of bed and do what we need to do.
I.E go to daycare unit, university and work a little instead of sleep all the time.

Our attacker was arrested last week after being involved in covering the tracks of another rapist,
we are sorry for the other people hurt but we're glad that he was arrested (released by now probably).

Still people hurt me a lot and I am tired of getting hurt all the time. Sara.