How are you today thread (trigger warning)

*massive neon trigger warnings* Feeling like crap. Lots of emotions floating around in here. Ell (the first one) invited the grandfather over this past week, Things Happened, you know, and i saw it and couldn't do a f*cking thing about it - locked out and sh*t, and now she keeps playing this damn song which is grossing me out. the lyrics being about him? kill me, and do it fast. god damn. This is so incredibly screwed up. i want to crawl into a hole and die. ell is pining, and the kinderkin are a mix of murderous rage and longing, and linn is depressed, and i just want to get the hell out of this body. shame burns. i counter that song with this song...about sums it up. die die die die die die die die. FML.

I'm so sorry dears. Will write as soon as we get home. Lots of safe hugs and pets if wanted.

Thank you Journalgirl and Lifelongthing. Feel much more contained at the moment; though we are a bit up and down and all over the place so who knows what will happen in the next minute even! Very fragile, I suppose you could say

Galaxies - sorry you're goin thru that $hiz --
hang in there - thinkin of u - hope you get somethin' figured out so u stop get locked out --
Man that is tough - but I'm thinkin your tougher - xxoo

Thinking of you all; galaxies, bourbon, journalgirl...

You are in our thoughts.

The house is finally in order. I don't think I could be more relieved.

lifelongthing wrote:The house is finally in order. I don't think I could be more relieved.

Great! Glad to hear from you. Was going to message you today to see if you were okay! Sounds like you've just been busy

*trigger warning*
Been very suicidal this week. Doing better now thankfully.
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That's sweet you've thought of messaging me

Oh I'm sorry to hear that Such desperate times. I've been there this past week too. Did something trigger it? I'm glad you're feeling better now.

Thank you. Yes, I know what triggered it and I've taken appropriate actions which is good. I wasn't able to reach out here for support which is unfortunate because I could've used some support and knowing people cared but I did get a couple PM's and that really helped as well.

I'm sorry you've been struggling. You've been on my mind and I've been following your blog