How are you today thread (trigger warning)

The cut will slowly heal until the next set come in to straighten more ribs and then they have check ups and the taking out, we will now always have to massive scars running down our back. It will take approximately 9 months to get them all in and then out.

William is annoyed as he is a gymnast and now can't do anything.
Damon can't go running incase he falls and a spike passes into our lungs.

It is like being in a bubble. We can't do anything really.

trigger warning!
maybe.

i see things!
in my head!
memories born again.
blood that's mine!
not mine.
what is worse!
i feel it in the flesh!
there is pain.
i want to scratch!
i want to bite!
a blood-let!
the master is dead!
but he is still very alive inside.
he is a dungeon of memories!
i do not want to be a prisoner of this war!
no battering ram can destroy this.
what would?
no sword can slay a ghost.
or can it?
i will see!
i need a cigarette!
bones

ah... maybe this is how he remains immortal...

Hi Bones. I'm sorry you're experiencing flashbacks. Do you have anything that tends to help with them? Thinking of you.

Hi Bones. It's Eliesa again. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling thusly. If you wish to talk I am here.

there is!
but i am told by my linn it is bad to do that thing.
so instead!
i will go raise hell in the woods.
bones

I hope you feel better soon Bones. You so deserve it.

We are here if you wish to talk.

Getting more and more depressed. Feeling more and more isolated. Struggling with part/s who want to quit therapy AGAIN! This is the third T in six months, we can't keep doing this I can't figure out whether it's really the Ts who are wrong for us, or whether it's (some of) us who will do ANYTHING to avoid therapy. We NEED therapy, goddammit! But I don't want it from someone who won't accept all of us where we're at. But, but, but... And so it goes. Plus, there is an alter who wants to silence us all, won't let me speak, won't let me post. ***Trigger*** Really struggling with the SI urges too. ***End*** What is this, post-diagnosis crisis or something? Just aargh!

It might very well be Owleyes. I'm sorry you're having such a tough time though. (safe hugs) if wanted.

We're here if you want to talk, as always.

I've got a bowl of water. I don't want to drink out of cups. No one ever understands that. I feel upside down today and I'm awfully tired of holding secrets, but I need to hold them down at least until I can talk to the T first. Sometimes it's hard to be cheery for everyone one else when you all you want to do is rest a bit and close your weary eyes. I suppose I'll have to answer for this later if someone else reads this. *sighs, slow wag* I'm sitting right side up. How can I feel so upside down?
Love,
Ellie

Hi Ellie.

Sorry you're feeling so upside down today. I hope maybe when you talk to your T you will feel more right side up again. Is it long until your appointment? Do you have to be cheery for them all the time, maybe allow yourself to have your own feelings, that include not being cheery, like everyone else?

Thinking of you

Thank you, lifelongthing. After some sleep, I do feel a bit better/ It's about five days until the appointment. I do have to be cheery for them. Someone has to be since everyone else gets so depressed, and someone has to take care of the children, although I suppse I'm not the only one to do that. *wags* You sound like our T. She says I can have feelings other than happiness and that it's normal to do so. I guess I just keep thinking about X and being cornered in a dark room while X demanded to know why I wasn't happy because children should always be happy. I guess I know that's incorrect thinking, but it still scares me a bit. *uncertain wag*
Love,
Ellie