why am i so easily thrown into chaos? tw

by **Familyof3** » Fri Mar 22, 2013 3:51 pm

So yesterday me and my SO were just chilling in bed, when he said The Other's name. Her real name. just like that, out of the blue, and he asked us why she is the only one we won't call by name. How can i explain our hatred for her, i hate her so much i can't put it into words. That b**ch tried to kill the Body 13 TIMES. 13. She had no friends, she had no life, she never went out and she was the reason we got so severely bullied her whole life + the 3 years i was alive and trying to fix her pathetic mess for her. She's the reason Birch needed to do the things he did, because they all hated her so much they tried to attack us. She was a f***ing fat as* and just kept jamming more food into her fat disgusting mouth all while b**ching about how ugly she was. I st*rved for her, I lost the weight, i destroyed our digestive system trying to make her feel pretty, trying to make ME feel pretty. Everything about her is so disgusting, her f*cking face, her f*cking eyes, her short little f*cking body. :evil:

I want to rip it away, destroy this filthy shell, but it's the only thing that can contain us.

him saying that name just makes me feel like her, like im just a figment of a diseased mind, what if i am? we could all be her trying to escape herself and the life she messed up.

Then comes the real question, who am i?

All he f**cking did was say her name, and now this. it's too much, too much change, too much hurt, too much all at once. :cry:

Oh gods, denial and an identity crisis... :roll:

Shut up, why are you typing, you could just be her too, we could all be her.

It doesn't seem like all of you could be The Other. It seems like she had an extreme self-hatred of herself (that you all seem to share to some point) that led her to the point of trying to commit suicide because she thought no one liked her, or cared, which is not necessarily true.
Try to think about all the ways that you're not her, that all of you are not her, because from what it seems like, you guys aren't her.
Sorry I can't offer more help and support.
I'll see if I can come back with anythig later.
Thinking of you guys.
-Shadow

why am i so easily thrown into chaos? tw