A plan-how I m dealin with the turmoil

Sorry, don't know much now. Just wanted to know I'm thinking of you.

Could maybe the older kids help out with this? Or, just so they know in case something happens. Together you'll be stronger than if you try to do it on your own.

Okay. I guess that, if Fernando can deal with Orkas and Sharks, he may be able to deal with this?

Amber is a strong girl. I m afraid for Indie, she s so fragile.

I ll take them out of the safe place, create the swing they re used to so they have a safe place right here and then tell them?

Maybe then can indeed help out. I m gonna try that right now. Thanks! Lesly

It is also important to make sure you're not too overwhelmed by this yourself. Take care. You're doing a great job, but you won't be able to when you don't take care of yourself. You're supposed to help each other out in there.

AFAIK a system shut down means everything goes in hiding mode. Which might be helpful right now to stabilize things.

Some threads I found with the forum search (I doubt whether they're helpful, though):
dissociative-identity/topic97697.html So Frustrating!
post1083511.html?hilit=system%20shut%20down#p1083511 getting into contact with feelings
post1019960.html?hilit=system%20shut%20down#p1019960 Experiences with uncertainty of who you are/how you feel
post986797.html?hilit=system%20shut%20down#p986797 How aware are other personalities aware of each other?
post510921.html?hilit=system%20shutting%20down#p510921 Meds and DID?
post502446.html?hilit=system%20shutting%20down#p502446 Us and talking

I m gonna rest up for now.

I m worried. If I don t last .... The kids were almost taken away too.

That leaves the animals. They re ....

How will daily life go?

What happens after a shutdonw? Is there soemthin like a reboot?

I have seriously no idea. Sorry. I hardly know what a shutdown is/means. I've seen it mentioned here on the forum, that's basically all I know.

Nina11 wrote:I m gonna rest up for now.

Good Think that's really important. It's not easy to deal with.

Nina11 wrote:How will daily life go?

Do you have someone that can support you in daily life?

Nina11 wrote:Wolf helped me again, and we watched the stars. He keeps talkin about shuttin down the system, but also says it will be all right.

Could you maybe ask Wolf (whoever it is) about what shutting down means? What will happen etc? Why he thinks it's going to be OK? You don't have to answer these questions, I thought it may be helpful in figuring things out.

I'm thinking of you all, just wanted to say.

So Lesly is gone. I tryin to reach the kids.
I read somethin wolf wrote, he was out when lesly was gone.
He said:shutdown means goin to the stars.
He said: lesly is a star now.

Still cryptic no?

They called me back. This is Fabio. Man, I need a drink and a chill. DOn t know how long I ll last.

System is so unstable. Can anyone tell the kids I m comin? Maybe they read this, I don t know. So confusin. Need to take care of the inner world and check upon the animals.

Fabio

I don't know whether you've seen it, or know it already, but here is a thread about you:
dissociative-identity/topic110388.html

Especially this part may be important to know:

Nina11 wrote:I m goin into the light. Someone is waitin for me.

I don t know when Fabio will return?

If it takes a while, do tell the kids please? I can t reach them anymore. Reassure them I ve taken care of the last bad guy in the system, with help of all of my friends, countin you guys too.

So - I m off. Not sure where to. DOn tknow if I ll return. I m exited and relieved.

Lesly

I'll tell the kids if they come up here.

I think the most important thing right now is calming down.

Thinking of you (all).

*sobs*
Amber here
*sobs*
Lesly is gone then
*sobs*
Who s gonna take over?
I m tryin to grow up. I can t grow up. *sobs*

Who s waitin for Lesly?
*sobs*

I m gonna paint a bit. Do I take the lead now? I don t know how. I won t grow!