Constant Co-consciousness?? trying to understand it

This is how my DID is pretty much all the time. I never know who is out exactly, and I will constantly feel that feeling of pulling back mentally when I am talking to someone or doing something. I think that this is a normal aspect of DID, and it is promising in the fact that it means the amnesiac boundaries between you and the other alters isn't as strong as those who experience full blackouts. I would say that it could be beneficial to take the times when you experience this as chances to get closer and to get to know the other alters.

-- Sat Oct 05, 2013 1:28 pm --

This is how my DID is pretty much all the time. I never know who is out exactly, and I will constantly feel that feeling of pulling back mentally when I am talking to someone or doing something. I think that this is a normal aspect of DID, and it is promising in the fact that it means the amnesiac boundaries between you and the other alters isn't as strong as those who experience full blackouts. I would say that it could be beneficial to take the times when you experience this as chances to get closer and to get to know the other alters.

A timely post for all within, thank you for posting.

rapid switching
this one said that, that one this,
this one not responding
this one responding of the verge of inappropriate
constant monitoring
pressure behind eyes
tired
Shhh everyone! and just relax till we get hold of this!

Were in a stressful time again, addressing large and small issues. Co consciousness mostly but just like someone is shaking the box and the items (us ) in the box are jumbled for few moments at a time. Hide it pretty well. Fortunately the weekend is here and there can be resorting, reengaging, reorganizing and repeat step 1 for next few days.

I've felt this way for years...

Never actually knew what it was. Didn't really know about DID.
But I've felt this for years and never knew what it was (still seems alittle foggy to me).

Hi. Thanks Humptydumpty and Una and others for helping me to make sense of this. I definitely see the pattern that Una describes when an alter surfaces - I have to reread your responses over a few times to make sense of things and it's even harder to respond right now but thanks for the input. Xxoo

I am so relieveds I'm not the only one going through this, I used to think I was not D.I.D because most D.I.D ppl forget. i knew about intergration. But nonone ever explains what its like when you are integrating. It' s good to have a name for some of the suff that happens like "co-conscious" and "rapid switching."

Journalgirl wrote:Hi. The past week or so I have moved into this constant co-conscious state or so I think? Light to heavy face pressure and constant DP/DR. And I'm kind of dizzy with slight vertigo all the time.

Just wondering if this is co-consciousness or rapid switching? I have the "falling" feeling you get right before you fall asleep at night except I'm very awake and having mini- falls constantly. I used to be able to force a particular switch to clear my head. Now it seems that I am stuck like this maybe co conscious all the time?

It feels like too much of everything all the time. Could I be getting overwhelmed or overstimulated with being co conscious and stuck that way?

It feels like my system is shifting to everyone being here all the time and maybe I'm just not used to feeling everyone's feelings all the time. It's like I'm on a boat enduring waves of various intensity and I'm not able to get off the boat.
Anyone feel like this when you are co-conscious? Or maybe I am experiencing something else?

This is a really good thread. I am hoping someone can help me make sense of what is going on with us this week. Before this week I could only feel or communicate with my alters when either they came closer to the front or I went inside. But, now it feels like the wall between us has totally fallen away. I am constantly hearing and feeling them all, all the time unless another alter comes out and then it is just the two or three of us. But if I, the host, is the only one fronting my head is constantly buzzing, a lot of derealization and vertigo. It really is making life difficult for me this week.

My posts are always too long so this one i'll keep short.

I suffer from dp/dr and somatic experiences. THANK YOU for the info. It just explained so much to me. At least now I have some understanding.

am4kds wrote:This is a really good thread. I am hoping someone can help me make sense of what is going on with us this week. Before this week I could only feel or communicate with my alters when either they came closer to the front or I went inside. But, now it feels like the wall between us has totally fallen away. I am constantly hearing and feeling them all, all the time unless another alter comes out and then it is just the two or three of us. But if I, the host, is the only one fronting my head is constantly buzzing, a lot of derealization and vertigo. It really is making life difficult for me this week.

I'm not sure I can help but I too have a constant (never goes away) buzzing in my head and though I've called it head noise or tinnitus it has been there since I was first aware of my system. In the past when I was not co conscious the noise was missing...
For the most part, I hear various alters thoughts in my head, the ones who have not integrated.
I'm not sure what will help your vertigo? Mine is better once the newly discovered alters have settled into co consciousness or co presence and I have accepted them but it did take a good while. I don't feel as dizzy anymore but I still can get a somatic sign like face pressure or heat in my upper body. It's weird. All of this is weird now that I know about it
Sorry things are difficult am4kds. Xoxo

JournalGirl, the tinnitus has been a thing with me on and off through my life, along with dissociation. I just came out of 20 years of denial and about a month before hand, I developed partial deafness with ear fullness and strong tinnitus, along with a sensation of not being able to see very well. It took a month and when my hearing went back to normal all of a sudden, at that moment I felt this big emotional pop and the whole world seemed different in some hard to describe way. This symptom keeps coming and going for me, on a smaller scale. I have been debating going to a doctor to make sure all is well, but I hate being a patient...

Am4kds, I hope you feel better soon. Weird how signs of progress can make things harder at first.

Nondescript wrote:JournalGirl, the tinnitus has been a thing with me on and off through my life, along with dissociation. I just came out of 20 years of denial and about a month before hand, I developed partial deafness with ear fullness and strong tinnitus, along with a sensation of not being able to see very well. It took a month and when my hearing went back to normal all of a sudden, at that moment I felt this big emotional pop and the whole world seemed different in some hard to describe way. This symptom keeps coming and going for me, on a smaller scale. I have been debating going to a doctor to make sure all is well, but I hate being a patient...

Am4kds, I hope you feel better soon. Weird how signs of progress can make things harder at first.

Nondescript hi. Do you know what caused the emotional pop and such? I had an event which caused my system to shuffle and I became aware of my did and that's when the noise started. I haven't had tinnitus prior to that event ( almost 2 years ago). I also had a host change with co consciousness. Whatever that was seems to be related to my tinnitus? I thought maybe if I integrated the noise would stop. I've had several integrations and the noise is the same :/ So maybe the tinnitus/noise is related to co consciousness? I'm just not sure but it helps to hear about others and their experiences. Xoxo