Am I at risk?/Just need people to talk to.

You're welcome!

It could be that you're going at this a bit too fast, but it's never easy through the early discovery stages. Any condition is hard to fully accept, come to terms with, etc. And having voices and dissociation symptoms? That can make it even harder to come to terms with because you're often lost in a cloud of "is this real?" and general confusion.

If I were you, I'd maybe take a bit of a break. Take some "you" time. Don't think about anything DID/DDNOS-1 or mental health related, try to not worry about anything (even your own confusion), try to let yourself just be and get "lost" in things like maybe a favorite hobby, or put on some favorite movies, or listen to favorite music, or relax and rest a bit, etc. Basically, try to let yourself get "lost" in whatever you choose to do/the here and now, and take some time to just be without trying to figure things out or worrying about things or focusing on your own confusion and such.

The mind is like a computer. If you run it too much, it can start to overheat, burn, and crash. It needs time to rest just like the body does.


Also definitely be sure to work on and remember grounding and calming techniques. They can help a lot.

*more safe hugs*


- Cassie (age ?)

Thanks again! This thread makes me feel like I've been unusually difficult lol. To tell the truth, was making some progress with the system this morning before things got out of control. Some form of communication I think. Major impressions I can remember/are being reaffirmed are that their current goal is to get me through this as CALMLY as possible. They're answer some very basic questions about how things are probably develop. Don't always get words, sometimes it's just impressions that I understand the meaning of. Joking with me somewhat I think. Was wondering who found this experience stranger You or I the answer I got was any "normal" that happened to wander into this thread. Made me laugh . Going to try to take your advice and work on "me" time and relaxation. Will still be hanging out in this thread though.

Ghastly wrote:Thanks again! This thread makes me feel like I've been unusually difficult lol.

you're welcome! nope, not at all!

Ghastly wrote:To tell the truth, was making some progress with the system this morning before things got out of control. Some form of communication I think. Major impressions I can remember/are being reaffirmed are that their current goal is to get me through this as CALMLY as possible.

that's great!

Ghastly wrote:They're answer some very basic questions about how things are probably develop. Don't always get words, sometimes it's just impressions that I understand the meaning of.

that's how we communicate sometimes too. used to have to do it a lot more in the early stages of discovery.

Ghastly wrote:Joking with me somewhat I think. Was wondering who found this experience stranger You or I the answer I got was any "normal" that happened to wander into this thread. Made me laugh . Going to try to take your advice and work on "me" time and relaxation. Will still be hanging out in this thread though.

hehe that sounds like answers cassandra used to get sometimes.

everyone needs "me" time and relaxation.

good to hear it.


- cassie (age ?)

*sigh* Every day is different. We're all very tired tonight. We'll be working on communication, followed by trust and go from there. We had a very good day. Someone was happy/laughy today and it kept us all feeling nice, but it burned alot of energy.

I don't always hear them. This is distressing me less now though. I don't know maybe things will just stop, go back to the way they were, however that was.

Read through a few of Cassandra's posts today. Sounds strangely similar to myself in ways.


Still alot of doubts. not sure about it at all.

There's probably more, but it's lost.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6q0VcgOfIQA We'll Carry on, We'll Carry on.

Ghastly wrote:*sigh* Every day is different. We're all very tired tonight. We'll be working on communication, followed by trust and go from there. We had a very good day. Someone was happy/laughy today and it kept us all feeling nice, but it burned alot of energy.

yeah i know what that can feel like (sometimes i was that one that was happy/laughy and kept everyone feeling nice, but it would make us very tired afterward ).

and there's always going to be good days, bad days, ok days, great days, horrible days, and everything in between. just try to hang on to the positives, and don't let the negatives get you down, especially since things don't stay "bad" forever.

Ghastly wrote:I don't always hear them. This is distressing me less now though. I don't know maybe things will just stop, go back to the way they were, however that was.

yeah, we don't always hear each other either, even now, after making awesome progress with communications and co-consciousness and such (almost our whole system is able to, for the most part, be co-conscious or co-host or both with each other).

Ghastly wrote:Read through a few of Cassandra's posts today. Sounds strangely similar to myself in ways.

i'm glad our posts can help, even if it's only finding something you identify with and knowing you're not alone. (and yeah, that finding similar things to yourself can happen a lot around here, but i kinda like it. )

Ghastly wrote:Still alot of doubts. not sure about it at all.

that's normal and ok to have, especially during the early stages of figuring stuff out.

Ghastly wrote:There's probably more, but it's lost.

we know that feeling and how that goes all too well.

Ghastly wrote:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6q0VcgOfIQA We'll Carry on, We'll Carry on.

so true (and thanks for the link).


hope you're still doing ok.


- cassie (age ?)

*Trigger Warning*

Let me start out by saying I really don't want to say this. I don't wan tot write this out and cause anyone pain. I don't want to keep bumping this ------- thread and tooting my own ---- horn. But I feel I owe it to you. I feel like if I se in in writing I'll accept it.

I sorry for wasting your time. There was never much wrong. It's just my ------- ADHD and related symptoms. Why did I even come to these ---- forums? Only thing remotely related to what all of you deal with is ------- derealization. I just want to go to sleep. I don't really care if I wake up atm. I love falling asleep, I hate waking up. I've been sleeping all day. It was never anything this major. I never feel like I'm possessed, I never lose time. I never lose control. I just need to man up and accept that the only thing ------- up my life is me. I hate the fact I keep doing these things to myself, I hate the self I have made. Never any voices. It was all just normal self talk, imagination, day dreams, and being so tired. Always tired, doesn't matter how much sleep I've had. See I'm ------- doing it again. Just ------- begging for ------- attention. The symptoms just aren't all there. There are other explanations.

Just... I'm sorry. Good luck helping others. So sorry

no. i don't think you really mean this, and i still believe there's a strong possibility for you to have DDNOS-1/DID, or at least some dissociative condition/disorder.

you know why? because i know what this is, i've seen it all over this forum, and we've gone through it ourselves.

this is doubt/denial kicking in, trying to hide everything again. fight it. don't give in to it.

you CANNOT create symptoms just by thinking you have something. ok? you HAVE to put it LOTS of CONSCIOUS EFFORT and TRYING to fake symptoms, and even then, after years, maybe, possibly, you MIGHT start to be able to convince yourself of your own lie, but until then, you know you're faking.

if this was not real, you would have no symptoms. plain and simple and true. you would have no voices at all. you would not have any dissociative experiences or feelings. you would not be able to identify with Cassandra's/our posts. again, plain and simple and true.


this is EXACTLY like a post cassandra wrote when she was in denial. don't let yourself go down that road. all you're doing right now is ignoring yourself, hurting yourself, and making yourself eventually go in a huge circle because once things start resurfacing, you'll start wondering again, and then denial will come and shut you down again, and you'll start all over until you finally can't deny it any longer. if you let denial win, you won't heal.


even if you don't have DID, you may have DDNOS-1, and even if you don't have that, you obviously have symptoms and experiences that "fit" here in this forum, you were getting help here, and i believe you were on the right track looking further into the possibility of you having DID/DDNOS-1, and with the dissociative symptoms, you most likely have some dissociative disorder of some sort. even so, no matter what, you are more than welcome to stay here, and i sincerely hope you do.


you are NOT just begging for attention. these symptoms are real, these experiences are real, and you shouldn't just write them off, because they're not fully explained by the reasons you listed, at least not as well as dissociative-ness and DID/DDNOS-1 possibilities explain them.


if you're going to be sorry for anything, be sorry to yourself for doubting yourself. *safe hugs if wanted*


- cassie (age ?)

Ghastly wrote:Should I see a T before the P-doc?[..]
Both a psychiatrist and psychologist can diagnose, however a psychiatrist can also provide medications. I currently have a psychiatrist appt. and was wondering if I should make an additional appt. with a specialist before. They both use similar techniques to dx, but treatment will differ.

Hi there

Just to say a therapist would definitely be a good idea.
Medication will be useful with other issues you're dealing with but as I understand it there is no medication to treat DID/DD-Nos etc.

I got some great answers when I asked about therapeutical approaches to dissociation/what to look for in a therapist in this thread:
dissociative-identity/topic107483.html

Best of luck!

Okay, feeling a little better today/tonight. I remember writing that post I remember, faintly, the emotion associated with it. Not sure how much of "me" was in it though. My head keeps reminding we are akin to a child right now. We are still growing and there will be growing pains inherent with that. To be honest if I were asked about the phrasing or structure of that last paragraph I would be at a loss. I'll be okay for the next few days, no work, so less triggers.

glad that you are feeling better! and you are right- there will be growing pains and difficulties, but nothing you can't survive/get through!

glad to hear that the next few days will have less triggers for you. maybe you can use this time to balance some "figuring stuff out" time and some "just plain you" time. can't always be trying to figure stuff out, after all. that's hard work on you and your brain, and everyone needs breaks from stuff.


i hope things become clearer for you soon and hope that you continue to feel better! *safe hugs if wanted*


- cassie (age ?)


(oh, p.s., cassandra has very barely faintly remembered writing posts that weren't from "her" before, and the emotions associated with it. including posts about doubt/denial that weren't from "her" exactly. and others of us can faintly remember writing posts that aren't from "us" sometimes as well. so you're not alone in those experiences.)