Unplanned integration work

hey hunni

this all sound so peaceful.

at ease

no rush

a tempo everyone can follow

I m glad you re goin through this and that it feels good, natural and without stress.

Keep writing.

Nina11

Hi

Thank you. It does feel natural and at ease. At first I was hoping it would take at least a year or a couple years, but now I really don't have a set time and I don't believe it will take that long. I was scared and nervous but I can honestly say right now that I'm not.

Had a very strange (and intensely triggering) nightmare that I just woke up from. Not sure yet if it is related to this or to something else. Time will tell.

Quoting from another thread where I wrote:

We are wondering about how our house will or will not change as I and another alter integrate.

In our inner world things are pretty static. There is little change; not that of seasons, time or of new things. But there is a sense of ashes to ashes, so I do wonder what will happen. Time will tell.

keep us posted

Other threads we have made about the topic of integration (that can relate to the situation we are now) for reference:

Inner world & integration
Integration & eye colour

keep us posted

Absolutely. It's nice to see you following still

For those who haven't seen it before; mine, Eliesa's, Anya's and L's house:

lifelongthing wrote:The outside of my/our house looks like this. It's the moomin house. The difference is this: You can't see the roof - there's just lots of clouds there so we don't know how tall it is, really. There's no porches or the things around the door or any frills like that. Just the sylinder shape (it's a synlinder formed house - no square walls - hard to see in the picture). [...] There's a big front door and while under the house there's just sky.. We're kinda living on a cloud sort of. In front of the front door (just from door post to door post) there was a white picket fence when we were "locked" inside. Now it's just broken (about 30 cm left of it). There's three grey stepping stones from the front door - but they just sit in the white, soft nothing-ness.

I live on the 2nd floor, while L lived in the attic space on top.
We will see what happens.
I am unable to get to her (the stairs work weirdly when you don't have access: you walk down them but just end up where you started.) but maybe in time before the integration I will. We will see.

sounds like a pretty place

Thank you It's taken from a children's show actually. Not purposely of course but I liked it a lot and poof, my space space when I split Neat really.

I noticed something peculiar on Wednesday:
I was sitting outside with the SO and a random stranger sat close by and was smoking. I'm a smoker and have been for over a decade now. The smell from this woman's cigarette though, was so off-putting I had trouble sitting there and focusing on our conversation. Little My 2, who has never smoked, was - as she always is now - present with me.

I have not, since Little My 2 started being blended with me and even more or less since this integration started being more conscious to me, wanted to smoke. How very interesting, indeed.

That's kind of cool from a health and financial point of view I wish it worked that way with me. Gemma and Jake are both smokers and when they're close I find myself craving cigarettes and even begging them off people and smoking them, and I've never been a smoker