Unplanned integration work

I made a drawing that I thoute of when I think about integretion
it's me and emma it's not so pretti or rite but I wanted to make it allthesame

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when i think about integration i think about puzzle pieces. none of us really want to integrate but we're open to the idea if it's needed for some reason or if it seems it'd be a better choice for us or something like that. but we want to try and heal and stay a system/team first.

but anyway i think about puzzle pieces. like each alter/fragment/part is a puzzle piece, and integration is where we all get put together like puzzle pieces and all create a whole picture and then that picture gets framed so that it stays whole and stuff. we don't "disappear" or "die" or anything like that, we're all still there as pieces, but now we're all together, and now everyone can see the whole picture (aka the person/personality) that we make up.


- cassie (age ?)

Ok

I think we are slowly working towards integration. It feels.. right somehow. That might change in the future, but it feels good to have something to work towards

In October, give or take (DID time is wonky ) we had a rush of memories from L. Three of us in the system got them, but only with me did the memories stick (e.g the others forgot them the next day). L and I were talking about how to deal with the trauma memories that are separate between us - and she reminded me of this. A whole evening of continuing loops of film played with her emotions, her body memories, her wants, her confusions about the situations - all of it. Since we shared memories up until age 9 and she comes out after trauma, not to endure any particular amount of trauma herself, this was difficult - but not as difficult as it would've been with say, Anya, who takes the worst of the abuse. What I was wondering though was this, if she is to integrate in me - does she have to process my memories too, or is it enough that I have processed her's? Thank you to anyone who still reads this thread - we are mostly using it to ask questions, release some emotions and thoughts and generally just to have somewhere to connect with this topic.

Thanks

i think all parts need to process all memories, of everyone, because they all need to be on the same page for integration to really work/happen. that's part of becoming one, i would think, being on the same page and all knowing the same information and all having processed everything and such.


- cassie (age ?)

Thanks. I've never heard of that, so that's good to know

Working on the system today and had some new parts reveal themselves. I think we're making huge progress in the system in general and especially between l and I.

Healing steps

I was beginning to believe that there was so little chance of actual healing that I thought it would be just a case of learn how to cope.

Your story gives me hope.

Thanks.

Love

Nina11

I'm very happy to hear that Best of luck on your journey towards healing