Possible blackouts? caused by DID?

Hiya again everyone it's moi scoobydoo sorry i havent been posting for a while [i think?] How longs it been since i last posted? lol

Anyway ill get on with what im going to say

Yesturday i was sitting thinking about my "Out Of Control Days" where i would goto the pub and go back to some nutters house "Like the stupid girl i am" The thing is i only remember starting the sexual act, id said no to him before hand and got out of his bed but then for some strange @!@@@! up reason i got back into his bed again

Now after getting back into his bed after saying "No to sex" i only remember starting the sexual act [Nothing else after that] And in the morning i think i remember us having sex again "But only the beginning of the sexual act. I cant remember anything else in between these times. Also "My down below was hurting really badly, bruised feeling and saw"

My question to myself would be "Why do i need to subject myself to such filth"? and my answer would be Don't have a clue, I'm an average looking girl i dont need to be [THIS EASY]

Could this be possible amnesia caused by DID?

Take Care All
[Signing Out!]

Its highly possible. I really think you need to talk to your therapist about having DID. Tell him/her what you told us. Ya know, before things get more out of control than they already have? You know its a good idea, cuz the kid against therapy is telling you to talk to your therapist about it.

To Mr. Bates

So you think it may have been a possible blackout too?

I will build up the courage to disclose this information to my helper because id like to know whats wrong with me, I know ive never been quote normal so i know there deffitenly is a problem that needs to be addressed. The only problem is I dont really like either of my suport helpers I liked them in the beginning but the more and more i got to know them i dont really like them much lol

Anyway thats me done typing

Take Care [Signing out!]

So get a new therapist, preferrably one that specializes in DID.

scoobedoo,
If you have a therapist that you need to think twice about revealing this to, then I would say you need to find a T that has a speciality in this area. My old psychiatrist didn't believe that DID existed. Obviously I found one that did. Then I found a T who had much experience working with people with DID. He helped me sooooo much

I used to have black out periods. They were frustrating to me because I would have found that half the day was gone and I hadn't gotten one thing done.

Like I and others have commented, maybe consider a different therapist.

Sweetngentle

I dont think my suport helpers are T's they just visit me every week in hopes that i will eventually be able to go out and lead a reasonably normal life.

The thing is im co-conscious when my other personalitys come out, i thought that DID sufferers wernt aware and have mental blocks when their personalitys came out?

I've also read up on Bipolar/Manic depression and it said that the person may experience thought conflicts [Like inner voices] so it may be that im only suffering with manic depression?

But it feels like im not incontrol of these other thoughts within my head but i am in control of my own "am i talking garbage" ? lol

Regarding the incident where i slept with the stranger i can only think i had a blackout during both times i had sex with him.

I already explained how co-conscienceness works. As for the blackouts, maybe its just something your alter doesn't want you to see. Or your mind just can't take it, so you black out while your alter does her buisness with Mr. Stranger