Isolation

Hi there,

Living at home makes me feel so isolated and alone, my past is filled with me dissociating, parents threatening me with a little bit of violence and right now i;m avoiding my mum who is unstable and kind of emotionally detached (she also makes me feel a little on edge when she gets too physically close and kind of feel like i cant block her out like i used be able to when she talks nonsense.

My Psychologist keeps asking me if im planning to make plans with a friend to meet up out of school hours etc, but I'm thinking that they all have families they are looking after and i cant keep attaching to them as they are gonna get sick of me if i keep on requiring time with them..

How do i break my sense of isolation from being at home? this is from one day of being at home (yesterday i went to school) ... i read that all i have to do is keep busy and volunteer my time with something useful that interests me and not to rely too heavily on new friendships etc(resulted in me feeling stressed when it goes sour when you trust too much without knowing the agenda of the person)

who do you talk to if you dont have partners/ friends that the majority of them dont know what your going through as they wouldnt understand your situation as they've never experienced abuse etc?

how can i get to the "normal" "ideal" sense of life that i dreamed of.. i.e. getting closer to friends and feeling nurtured and not having to go through isolation/loneliness anymore?

alterations wrote:How do i break my sense of isolation from being at home? this is from one day of being at home (yesterday i went to school) ... i read that all i have to do is keep busy and volunteer my time with something useful that interests me and not to rely too heavily on new friendships etc(

Yes this would definately help alot maybe even a simple part time job or even volunteer somewhere

alterations wrote:who do you talk to if you dont have partners/ friends that the majority of them dont know what your going through as they wouldnt understand your situation as they've never experienced abuse etc?

Just because they don't truly understand doesn't mean they won't be supportive and or helpful.
you never know someone may be going through similar things.
just don't drop things to heavily onto people.

alterations wrote:My Psychologist keeps asking me if im planning to make plans with a friend to meet up out of school hours etc, but I'm thinking that they all have families they are looking after and i cant keep attaching to them as they are gonna get sick of me if i keep on requiring time with them..

are these times organised and you're not showing up unannouced if you discuss with your friends it'll be fine most people do want to spend time with there friends it's just balancing it out with eachother.

alterations wrote:parents threatening me with a little bit of violence and right now i;m avoiding my mum who is unstable and kind of emotionally detached (she also makes me feel a little on edge when she gets too physically close and kind of feel like i cant block her out like i used be able to when she talks nonsense.

If you feel threathened is there anyways you can get away from the abusive household. Ask your psych I'm sure she'll know some places that could help you out. Do you have other family you could stay with.

-Teh lonely kitty

i don't really have anything to say to help, but i can tell you that we can definitely relate and understand, and you're not alone in how you feel or your experiences and struggles. and i'm sorry that things are difficult for you right now.


- cassie (age ?)