Seeing Vampires and Demons "May Trigger"

I hear voices. They command me to do things. i think i am more schizophrenic than anything. but i also have these facets of me that sometimes show in my behavior. I'm not sure it is DID but i know i dissociate. And these alters i call them are more or less my voices talking through me. I let them talk. But I'm not denying they exist, but they are my voices caused by my schizophrenia. when i say i dissociate i mean i lose touch with reality. Jenny John, and the rest of them are voices. They never have full control over me. I am fully in control, but they speak through me if that makes sense. Sometimes i wake up and i see things like shadows in my room with a fedora, and sometimes i have bizarre dreams. I sometimes have distortions in my perception like i think my hands are growing and i see demon faces in my field of vision. the worst thing was a white face with bloody fangs looking at me over my shoulder smiling and then stepping back into the shadows. It whispered I'll see you tonight, and then i saw it again at the foot of my bed. it was a vampire looking thing, but it was a woman. closed my eyes and threw the cover over my head, and It pulled my covers back away from my face and then came close to my neck, and then i punched it, and it attacked me. I saw it again here recently. It opened my shower curtain, while i was taking a shower, and asked me"Miss Me?" and then Satan came out and told it it wasnt to bite me until i give him my soul. I don't know, but I'm wondering about the implications of that. I read one time Schizophrenia gets more fun when the things you used to see out of the corner of your eye stays there permanently and starts to move toward you and starts attacking you. I have seen Satan before this. He made himself appear as a shadow with a fedora with red eyes. My medication works though for all other hallucinations. I have learned to deal with this though. He has come back and asked me if i was ready to give him my soul yet though.

Starting to think maybe this is actually real. most of my hallucinations my hand would go through, and this has been going on since before i was originally admitted for psychosis. this has been going on for about 4 years, or since i was 16. at 5 i had my first paranormal experience, and my relatives saw the same thing I did. It was a shadow being. then i saw a demon at 16, and now i see vampires and that sort of thing. Unless ive been schizophrenic when i was a child, I dont know what this is.

-- Wed Feb 27, 2013 10:34 pm --

Maybe ive been ill since i was a baby. I don't really know. saw like numbers decreasing in increments of 1 when i was about 10 or 11 and saw sea creatures and explosions of color when i was 3 or 4 up til about 15, then it became demons and things of that nature.

Hi there (James?)

I'm no expert on DID vs Schizophrenia, but I used to see lots of demons and dark beings when I was younger. Apparently that can happen with both conditions. I also used to see dark shadows hanging around my room and because I was a silly teenager I started to provoke them and tease them until they got angry and very weird stuff happened, like a mirror on the other end of the room suddenly smashing with no one even near it. Not sure how that is accounted for by the "mental illness" label, but ok...

In any case, I am pretty sure that where there is darkness, there is also light. It you are struggling with dark entities, maybe you can ask for help from the other side, someone to protect you. That did work for me, someone came round and showed me how to protect myself.

Best, Ruby

I'm personally Atheist, so i don't know why satan talks to me.

*Trigger Warning*

i see demons and shapeshifters, creatures of darkness, monsters and mutants... i laugh at them and smile... they try to scare me and i laugh in their faces, or where their faces should be for some... i sing and smile, and laugh at their attempts to scare... they do not scare... they show me things, visions, images, of things untrue for what is known as reality, the "outside world", but i laugh at what they show me... i see blood coming from eye sockets, black holes where eyes once were, this is one of the things they show me and would have me believe and react in fright but i do not... i laugh and if i am in the presence of a mirror, i laugh at the visions i see, and smile instead of scare...

*End Trigger Warning*


James, I am no professional, but from doing personal research, and speaking from our own experiences, I hope to be of some help to you.


With DID, one may experience:
- Visual hallucinations (such hallucinations could be of their alters/parts, or they could be of flashbacks and memories, or they could seem to be/be unrelated to anything much like Cassidy's hallucinations).
- Auditory hallucinations (such hallucinations could be of their alters/parts talking to them, or they could be of voices from the past/memories/flashbacks, or they could be simply true hallucinations of voices seeming to be/being unrelated to anything. Cassidy hears such voices at times, and so does Luna).
- Memory issues, amnesia, "lost time"
- Dissociation/detachment from reality
- Feeling as if you are not in control of yourself, what you are doing, what you are saying, yet you are still aware of what is going on
- Hearing consistent voices in your head that have identities (not like "satan" or "God", but identities such as a little kid, perhaps seeming to be a "kid version" of yourself, or a teenager, or something like that, perhaps with names, perhaps not, but they are consistent in their identity/voice).
- Feelings of depersonalization/derealization


DID can seem and is, for some symptoms, very similar to schizophrenia. DID is commonly misdiagnosed for conditions such as schizophrenia, psychosis, borderline personality disorder, and bipolar disorder (however, it is possible for people to have both DID and one or more of these conditions, but most often what happens is misdiagnosis).


One of our alters, Luna, could probably be diagnosed with schizophrenia if she was "out in control" by herself and got evaluated as only "her". She has extreme bouts of paranoia, she has strong visual and auditory hallucinations, she receives "command hallucinations", she has bouts of speaking jumbled letters that do not form words, etc. She, as an alter, herself, "fits" schizophrenia, but as a whole, we are DID. (Our official diagnoses: Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, Visual Hallucinations- cause unknown, and (Possible) DID- we had a skeptical doctor for evaluation, unfortunately, but at least Kat got them to write down "Possible DID". We wish to get re-evaluated and have that "possible" diagnosis corrected as soon as we are able to).



I hope I was able to be of some help to you.


~Rain

well i have seen Jenny, in place of myself and also she has sat beside me when i was riding in my car smiling at me. My name is actually something else, but if you want to know it PM me. my original name was James though so you can call me that. I'm actually considering taking my original name before I was adopted back. mainly because it sounds good together.