Hi.

I used to believe i was a telepath, but when i tried it with a friend that was willing to help me distinguish delusion from reality, i found out otherwise. I also think people insert and take thoughts out of my head at times. I can be quite delusional at times. Episodes come and go. They last anywhere from a day to a few weeks. longest its ever lasted was when i was unmedicated. I started SI and took to smoking cigars and that sort of thing. It went for a little while. I was to the point I was about to commit suicide one time., and then my friend talked me out of it. It was a friend i made on Xbox talked me out of it, Then i stayed up for a month without sleeping. Then my parents and psychologist and I at the time decided i needed to be admitted. It has slowly leveled out since then.

**TrIgGeR WaRnInG**
When I was very young and being molested, the school had my mom get me tested. The results said I was Bipolar with schizophrenic tendencies. (I don't remember that... But I do.) Later, wen they found out what had been happening the last three years they said that was all null and void in light of the circumstances.
They told me I had to write a letter to the judge telling him what Michael did and I just told them what I told my friend (Which is how they found out) because not even a month after it stopped I couldn't remember any of it.

I'm sorry that happened to you. Abuse is never easy to deal with, and it shatters the people who are abused entire worlds. Particularly Sexual abuse. I know a woman who was raped, and she still has problems with intimacy because of what the man that hurt her did to her.

**TrIgGeR WaRnInG** ((StOp FoRgEtTiNg ThEm...))
It was actually the easy part of my life. It wasn't the worst of the sexual abuse. And the physical abuse was much worse. The bullying sucked even worse. It wasn't so bad. I can't remember any of my life any way... Only the past year or so after I moved out of my mothers house.

Yeah the bullying was the worst for me, after my papaw died. My emotions become very erratic as did my behavior after he died.

I'm sorry to hear that things hurt you so badly... I wish I could make it better.

Thank you. I've been doing really well as of late. In comparison to the past.

I'm glad to hear that. It's good to know things are getting better for you.

How have things been for everyone else on here?

Jude snapped and blacked out. He didn't hurt any one. If you don't know, Jude's a chill Mofo. Perpetually high on Dopamine and Endorphins. The dude he likes calmed him down, and nobody got hurt.-Steve