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I feel on top of the world, but I'm starting to hear the devil again. He's telling me that I will be among his Generals in the end battle. Of course i know this is a delusion, but do you all do the same? I start hearing these every so once in a while. And one time it was God telling me i was his Son and to bring people to him.Ive been diagnosed Bipolar 1 with psychotic features and Paranoid Schizophrenic. Most of the time i stay leveled out on the Meds I'm on. I take Geodon and Lexapro. they do me wonders, but i occasionally have episodes like this. So i ask you all, does medication keep you from having episodes completely or do you still have episodes? I don't honestly know if I'm schizophrenic, But Ive been diagnosed as Bipolar twice and was hospitalized for psychosis in the past. Of course the doctor that diagnosed me as bipolar diagnosed me as Paranoid schizophrenic, so i have no idea. Can Anyone relate?

TheManyFacesOfMe wrote:I'm starting to hear the devil again. He's telling me that I will be among his Generals in the end battle. Of course i know this is a delusion, but do you all do the same? I start hearing these every so once in a while. And one time it was God telling me i was his Son and to bring people to him.

You are experiencing command hallucinations. Are you able to resist acting on them? Not acting on them usually is best. You don't have to do something just because The Voice of God In Your Head tells you to do it.

Your diagnosis seems not well established, but let's say it is DID. In the context of DID command hallucinations are not necessarily hallucinations; they may be real in the sense that they are being made by an alter for some purpose such as confusing you, controlling you, or tormenting you. And whether they are hallucinations or not, if you see them as "stuff" in you mind then your reality testing seems to be adequate and you are not delusional, not psychotic.

I have experienced some command "hallucinations". Because I have a formal diagnosis of DID and have never been diagnosed with schizophrenia or any form of psychosis, these are likely not to be hallucinations but rather stunts by an alter. My T at the time recommended the Hearing Voices Network to me and I also found some helpful writing by and about Julian Jayne that helped to put this new scary experience into a larger context, and somewhat normalize it.

Wikipedia: Hearing Voices Network
Wikipedia: Julian Jaynes

i know they arent real, so they don't bother me much. My main hallucination is hearing a choir singing. and sometimes the only time i get confused is when i hear my name being called. of course, ive thought that people were out to get me and that sort of thing though. I'm more Borderline/Bipolar than anything else. i have facets of many illnesses. the voices take on the aspect of thoughts though, that keep popping into my head. I feel more like it is obsessive thinking than anything