OH MAN! Trigger warning

I feel like at the moment we are all living in a deluded world Okay
( I'm not to sure if this symtoms go under DID or not
Violent moods swings with no switching out seperate question sorry)


everything feels clearly wrong looking at the behaviour of are aunt it seems like everyone is trieing to come with everything but DID
kind of denial in my family that something happened to us I feel like everyone is beating around the bush
We have attempted suicide other people/alters do switch out denial runs free we are clearly not healthy enough to keep this job how come no1 sees us falling apart from the inside HOW COME NO ONE HAS NOTICED ARE SUFFERING Im tired of us being told to toughen up I'm tired of us struggling to breath I'm sick of people thinking are friend with DID gave it to us WE ARE NOT BEING MANIPULATED IF ANYTHING EVERYONE IS MANIPULATING US INTO IT THINKING NOTHING IS WRONG
IM SICK AND TIRED OF US BEING TOLD WHAT WE ARE AND WHAT TO BE
I HAVEN'T BEEN TRIGGERED OUT IN YEARS
you know why because im over channelle and nel hiding from what they are feeling im tired of them blindly following there family they are good people but family ain't going to admit truly to themselves one of there own is crazier than them see i used crazier because they are stigmatised or what ever
Channelle and nel if you really want to know what happened to you i can tell internally but you got you're walls up so im going to post it on here
yes youre dads ex-wife used to abuse you why do you think her daughters struggled when they where young
you where m*lested as a child but i dont know if your family knew
you where mercilessly bullied as a child why do you think dad changed you're schools
your dads temper did traumatise you
YOU ALL WENT THROUGH ALOT STOP DENYING EVERYTHING IS OKAY
Just because you're family went through worse doesn't mean you went through nothing
you are not disgusting freak of nature because of this you are a survivor of the most powerful kind
stop lieing..stop deluding stop listening to everyone else besides you're own heart
please let us start to heal

I'M SO ANGRY AT ALL OF THIS WHY HAVE WE NOT HELPED ARESELVES WHY IS EVEYONE BEING SO IGNORANT I JUST DON'T GET IT
so lost -??????????

I'm sorry you're all going through this *safe hugs if wanted*

You're right, you shouldn't be told who to be, because you are what you should be. You don't have to be anything other than that. And you don't have to care what everyone thinks of that.

Have you shown this to Channelle and Nel? It sounds like it might help. Though I dont know enough about the situation to know if they're ready to know all this or not.

I know exactly, spot on, what you are going through. In tenth grade I began having the symptoms and my aunt told me not to say anything because I would spend the rest of my life in a 'crazy house' where I wouldn't have contact with any of my friends or my boyfriend. After that, the people in my head kind of went away. I hardly felt or recognized them as other people. They were still there, but not as often. :/ I had told my boyfriend A and my best friend K about the people when they were coming to my attention, but they didn't seem to think much of it and said it was probably normal.

They weren't really audible voices. I could just hear them as loud thoughts and there was no switching. I had the metal images of them and they had their own personalities that I did not consciously come up with. It didn't seem like much to worry about, though. I figured it was only my imagination. I did phase back then. Always dizzy when I felt them

K did tell me that there was a time where I was talking in a deeper voice and insisting that everyone left me alone at church once and she said it was so random that it must have been a switch. Neither of us knew what DID was at that point, though so she just figured I was in a bad mood. I have no memory of this, though.

Anyway, about a year later, my best friend K was diagnosed with DID. My symptoms began to really flare up a few months later. The same people from tenth grade began to come out again and switching has been occurring and all of the other stuff. I have the full fledged symptoms now and it's impossible to deny.

The issue now is that a lot of people doubt that I have DID because K has it and we're best friends. Not many people will take me seriously because I had only told my drugged up aunt and my two best friends who won't be believed by adults in my life. I was afraid to tell people about it. Now I wish I would have so I would be taken more seriously. People either think that I'm lying to be like K or that I 'think I have it' because K does. :/

Now I have a therapist who doesn't believe DID exists and she blames this on stress. R (The lady I live with now) thinks that this is K's fault or that it's emotions with names that I can 'push away' or manage. Urgh.

So, I know how you must be feeling. It's awful and frustating.

Gerudo7 wrote:I'm sorry you're all going through this *safe hugs if wanted*

Thank you very much for this

Hornet339 wrote:So, I know how you must be feeling. It's awful and frustating.

thank you for sharing your experiences they always in thinking things through for a second time

are aunt acted out of haste and crushed the the last bit of effort to connecting and communication to anyone even are father told barry to 'stop talking funny' Just us are friend we have decided here on out are going to be trusted with are alters there to fragile besides a T to we need to start seeing someone this mind is weak still fighting for its soul I'm not going to let ignorance and self pity destroy us
My nickname is Rose by the way hope you are having a wonderful day

*safe hugs if wanted*



good for you for standing up for yourself and everyone's feelings and stuff, rose. you're definitely right, just because other people have gone through worse doesn't mean you guys went through nothing. it definitely wasn't nothing, and it's definitely not stuff that's ok or that should be just brushed off or something.

hope things get better for you all soon.

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I think part of the problem of why people are so hesitant to accept multiplicity is because multiples are so damn good at seeming normal. unless someone has a Sherlock Holmes level of awareness it's easy to miss, or at least easy to pass off as being "goofy" (oddly enough, this is the usual response "Oh you are multiple? lolz, i just thought you were goofy/moody/bizarre/theatrical etc *headdesk*). I am sorry you are going through this tough sh*t. In our experience it seems family would rather keep their blinders on then accept bad sh*t happened. Which is annoying cause its like, good for you enjoying your soft downy pillow of denial while i am walking on hot coals all the goddamn time, you pricks. it is most important during sh*t like this to listen to the inside and not the drivel outside from people who don't get it, accept it, embrace it, or even know half the sh*t you've lived through. You all are strong and you can heal, hell you lived through it and thats the first step. you all should just be who you are, as you are. there is enough secrecy in multipleland already, so don't put a mask on yourself. Flaunt it you are nothing bad, you are nothing that should be hidden, so take the proverbial stage and own it!! take care folks. We're always here if you need an ear (or two or three or four).
Cleo

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good for you for standing up for yourself and everyone's feelings and stuff, rose. you're definitely right, just because other people have gone through worse doesn't mean you guys went through nothing. it definitely wasn't nothing, and it's definitely not stuff that's ok or that should be just brushed off or something.

hope things get better for you all soon.

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Thank you! they don't seem to get it I have pleaded My case but no one will listen hugs much needed thanks

galaxies wrote:I think part of the problem of why people are so hesitant to accept multiplicity is because multiples are so damn good at seeming normal.

yes from the other memories i can see no one noticed them at all I'm thinking this very very true

galaxies wrote:unless someone has a Sherlock Holmes level of awareness it's easy to miss, or at least easy to pass off as being "goofy" (oddly enough, this is the usual response "Oh you are multiple? lolz, i just thought you were goofy/moody/bizarre/theatrical etc *headdesk*).

high school right there! before awareness Oh you're just weird and funny just nel aarrghh the memories make me so angry
she wasn't truly aware but she noticed something wasn't quite right and they all just blew it off when she asked sometime i lose days why does it feel like there is someone else in my body Why do I do these things i can't control but i know are happenin (co-con) Why did dad say stop talking in that 'baby voice'(Charlie) he can sound like a pre-teen girl but he's a beautiful boy

galaxies wrote:you all should just be who you are, as you are. there is enough secrecy in multipleland already, so don't put a mask on yourself. Flaunt it you are nothing bad, you are nothing that should be hidden, so take the proverbial stage and own it!! take care folks. We're always here if you need an ear (or two or three or four).

Thanks got to keep going and going
Sorry for my aggresive rants