by Johnny-Jack » Fri Feb 22, 2013 1:47 am
Well this post certainly made me think. I've pulled some internet photos that my alters have pointed to that look kind of like them but never exactly. When I'm lucky enough to get a clear picture of what they're sending me of what they look like, they don't look like anyone we've ever met, except for Little John, who was a host like me and there are photographs of him. Our situation makes less sense to me than looking like someone you've met. I can see Dan probably the clearest and he just doesn't look like us at all. His response to my observation is what, I look like me, who am I supposed to look like? But that doesn't answer the question when there's a different body they inhabit.
Just last night, Max was getting food out of a freezer in a store and couldn't entirely avoid a peripheral image of the body. When I mentioned it, probably asking him "Max, who's that?", he responded he's that guy who keeps following us around. Totally shocked to get that response! When I probed further he said I don't know him, he's always there. So Max tries hard to avoid seeing the body but just can't block it out entirely. He still flips closed the mirror we have in the bathroom so he doesn't accidentally see us/the guy/the body. It's more like cognitive dissonance. It doesn't seem to make sense to him, he feels more confused than upset -- he's really young -- so he mostly tries to avoid it all. He'll look at the feet and think those are too big for my feet even though he can wiggle them. He's also said I'm big now or I got so big so he's not oblivious either. At the same time, I, the host, realize this is all happening in one body, one mind. But what I just described is exactly how I am/we are experiencing all this.
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