want to go away...go away anywhere...just disappear... *TW*

I am sorry that your mommy died. *safe hugs* But she surely is ok where she is now, watching over you.

hey cassie. are you better now?

what kimmy said is true. that's what i've been told when daddy died, and i believe it's true cause kimmy had never lied to me

is blank better now?

*Possible Trigger Warning*
thank you...

i know that she's ok now up in heaven and is a pretty angel and everything... but i think sumtimes we get confused on time stuff and when it is...

i'm a bit better... i still get the image and sound replays... i hate them so much!!!

i dunno... i haven't seen blank today yet i don't think...

(Last "news report" I got was I believe from Marie, who said she thinks Blank might be with Keith/"Little Ryan", and the possible "Pretty" alter, but where they are she doesn't know. Although it is rather quiet it seems, so that's usually a good sign that no one's in a flashback or anything. ~The Hawk)

*Trigger Warning* (~Phenix)

make it stop, please, make it stop, i just want it to stop...

i keep seeing it and seeing it and it happens over and over again and i don't wanna see it anymore!!

i keep hearing it and it echoes and i hate it and i don't wanna hear it anymore!!

i just want it all to stop...just stop...it's been forever...the sounds and images have been replaying forever...i just want it all to stop....


-cassie

*Trigger Warning*

i still see them. they're still replaying. sumtimes they stop but then when they come back it's worse than before... i just want them to go away forever... the images and the noises... i hate them so much...

-cassie

*trigger warning*

i hate flashbacks...

i hate the bathroom now...

i can't go in there without something replaying... or flashing through my mind... either an image, or a sound, or both....

and today no one's here to help me... or at least if they are, i can't see them, i can't hear them, and i can't sense them...

i have to face the bathroom alone...

and ignore the stuff i see and hear best i can....

i wish they'd just stop and go away....


- cassie (age ?)

*trigger warning*

i can hear cassidy's voice... sounds like it's far away but i can hear it... she's saying:

"i still wish to punish... i still wish to see blood for real... he deserves to be punished! i see the replays of him... puking and not stopping... and i see the woman that i feel i should know with the pukey mouth and blood coming out her eyes, those black holes for eyes... and i know it is his fault for what i see. he must be punished! how dare he be so stupid! how dare he be so careless! how dare he make such stupid mistakes! how dare he! this is is fault and he must be punished! i wish, no, long to see him bleed for this! i long to make him miserable by my hand! he has caused pain, and he must share it! he must know the pain he has caused and he must be punished for it! he enrages me, and i detest him, i hate him, i despise him! he is pathetic to me! i laugh at him, i frown upon him, and i long to hurt him. i have not forgotten this incident, and he still needs to pay for this."


i don't like her that much... she's so scary and mean and dark....


- cassie (age ?)

*trigger warning*

i see it happen all over again... and again and again... replaying, repeating, over and over and over... i see him getting sick as if it's happening again and i hate it...

i hear it happen all over again... replaying over and over again... repeating in my head... sounding as if it's happening again... i hear him getting sick and i hate it so very much...

any time i go in the bathroom it replays... something replays and repeats... either the images or the sounds or both.... i just wish it'd stop and go away... i just want it to stop...


- cassie (age ?)

There, there love. <safe hugs if wanted> I'm so very sorry about these unfortunate events. I wish I knew how to fix it for you, dear, but I simply don't have enough experience with this... All I can say is that I'm sorry, that I hope you are able to work through it quickly and effectively, and that we're here for you. Oh, I wish I could really be there to help, but such is the way of the world.

Feel better, dear. <3

~ Maria

I don't have anything with this, so I'm sorry. I'm sorry things have been tough for you lately. I hope this gets better. Sending you all my good wishes. *blows kisses at Cassie* (? Is that okay?)

AliasForAFew wrote: There, there love. <safe hugs if wanted> I'm so very sorry about these unfortunate events. I wish I knew how to fix it for you, dear, but I simply don't have enough experience with this... All I can say is that I'm sorry, that I hope you are able to work through it quickly and effectively, and that we're here for you. Oh, I wish I could really be there to help, but such is the way of the world.

Feel better, dear. <3

~ Maria

thank you... *safe hugs appreciated*

i usually feel ok unless i'm in the bathroom... and i hope that gets better soon somehow...


- cassie (age ?)

michiru7422 wrote:I don't have anything with this, so I'm sorry. I'm sorry things have been tough for you lately. I hope this gets better. Sending you all my good wishes. *blows kisses at Cassie* (? Is that okay?)

thank you... hehe yes that's ok.

i hope it gets better too..


- cassie (age ?)