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ThatPerson wrote:Thanks for the advice. I keep up with the Ahhh yeeee!!! Post thing said there was aperently alot of cutting of the woods and renovations going on. Tired as crap today to and Yesterday it wasn't finnished so that's probably why....
Also. You said ask them to be quiet. I have. Some still talk. Then get on to me for not thinking to myself?! The Nerve! Can't tell who's who all the time yet, but I'm alright with the idea now. Aperently I was not the first host. I've also been informed that most of the others were aware of others but didn't know what it was called or that there was a word for it. Had some memories of that actually, but they felt like some one else's memories, for lack of a better explanation.
Oh my god. Seeing mistakes in my thing actually makes my eye's kinda hurt right now. But it happens almost never... Why the crap?

Have you tried explaining why you want quiet? Often times it's hard to listen and follow someone when they're either just telling you to do something, or don't give you a reason for why you should do it, because then it's easy to go, "Well, why am I supposed to do this? Screw this, they can't just order me about. I'll talk anyway". Try helping them to understand why you would like quiet.

Also, keep in mind that there are alters who can be abusive, who can seem to not care about you or what you want (yet at the same time they've helped you to survive), and there can be rebellious alters who just don't like to be or even seem like they're getting controlled in any way, shape, or form. It will take more time and communication and work to learn how to compromise, talk with, and work things out with these alters.

And sometimes it's just loud. Sometimes alters can't help it either. Sometimes they can look at you and be like, "Well why don't you block us out?", or they can perhaps hear you all the time and look at it like, "Well, when you're quiet to me, I'll be quiet to you". Unfortunately, it will never be perfect. You just have to do your best sometimes in making things work for you, figuring out why things happen, figuring out how things are for the others, understanding yourself and the situation more, stuff like that. (Not all overnight of course). Sometimes I just want my alters to shut up, but often times, I know it's not their fault that I can hear them. If they would like, put up a barrier all the time for me, or plug my inner ears or something, I know most of them would, but they can't always help or control what I hear, so it's no one's fault, and we just have to find ways to adjust, cope, and make the best of it.


-Cassandra

I just got a "Yeah! What she said!" to that post, so thank you for the advise and I will begin putting it to good use immediately! You've been a great help tomboy24, thank you for everything.

Oh good! So glad I could help out! I hope that things will get better now that there's more understanding! And you're definitely welcome!

-Cassandra

I'm learning so much about every thing. It makes things run smoother, but I'm glad I have problems sleeping sometimes. Gives me time to process while I wait for sleep to come...

I can understand that. Sometimes I'm glad for that as well.

-Cassandra

So aperently there's a laid back stoner dude? Confuzing as crap... I know my mom used to make me smoke with her, but I don't remember most of that... Figured it was cus I was on some MJ...

My Aunt is empathic and can feel the emotions of the others apparently. She thinks I have bad spirits and told me to "throw the #####& out".
*we all iz unusually pissed*

ThatPerson wrote:So aperently there's a laid back stoner dude? Confuzing as crap... I know my mom used to make me smoke with her, but I don't remember most of that... Figured it was cus I was on some MJ...

That actually makes sense. Especially if you didn't want to be smoking, or if you were too young to be smoking, or if you weren't able to handle the being high well so there was an alter developed who could handle the high well, etc.

For me, the main difference between memories affected by DID/time loss and memories affected by marijuana is that marijuana memories don't disappear completely. I might not remember details, I might only have a vague memory, but there is a memory there (it's actually kinda similar to having a memory I was co-conscious for, with the unclear-ness and fuzzyness that can be there). With memories affected by time loss, there's nothing. There's a space, a blank spot, for when the time loss occurred, and I will have no idea what that spot is supposed to be filled with/what memory is supposed to be there (usually until someone else "updates" me on that memory, but only if I ask out it or it's needed, like if someone asks me a question regarding a memory I don't have. Hope that made sense).

ThatPerson wrote:My Aunt is empathic and can feel the emotions of the others apparently. She thinks I have bad spirits and told me to "throw the #####& out".
*we all iz unusually pissed*

If your aunt was truly empathetic, she would be able to empathize with your alters, not just assume they're bad spirits and need to be "thrown out".

It sounds like your aunt is more aura-aware, not necessarily empathetic. An aura of a person consists of their "energy", their emotions at the time, their thoughts/mindset, their body language, etc. It's a "vibe" that a person "sends out" without being aware of it most of the time, and it can sometimes be sensed or even seen by others (auras can often be seen as a color surrounding a person or something, like a person with a happy aura might seem to have a yellow glow around them or something like that). It seems that your aunt is sensing the different parts of your aura that's influenced by your alters, and it's clear that your aunt doesn't understand DID, and for that I'm sorry. *safe hugs if wanted* You have every right to be angry, but know that unfortunately, there are some people who will never believe in or understand DID, and will always hold the view that alters are bad spirits, or demons, or things like that. Try to not let them get to you.


-Cassandra

Looking back and going though a few pooled memories from the river I see that I was called possessed and even took for an exorcism. It just... Irks me because it makes sense now I guess... I never got it before and now it's like... Wow... Why did no one else ever see that with all the bull sh*t evidence... Why is it So good at hiding? How the crap was it never noticed. Especially when I was in court ordered therapy...?! For Years!

ThatPerson wrote:Looking back and going though a few pooled memories from the river I see that I was called possessed and even took for an exorcism. It just... Irks me because it makes sense now I guess... I never got it before and now it's like... Wow... Why did no one else ever see that with all the bull sh*t evidence... Why is it So good at hiding? How the crap was it never noticed. Especially when I was in court ordered therapy...?! For Years!

Unfortunately, DID is still very controversial, and very unknown, especially in some areas compared to others.

*Possible Trigger Warning*
Originally, before more was learned about psychology in general, conditions like DID, schizophrenia, psychosis, etc., were thought to be demonic possessions, or a type of "mind sickness" that could be "forced" away with "cures" that shock a person's system (like ice cold water submergence). Due to DID being so controversial, and the updated, current information not being shared in the knowledge mainstream, some of these ideas are still very strong in some areas of the world.
*End Possible Trigger Warning*

Also, due to DID's controversy, doubt, peoples' skepticism, and the new, up-to-date and valid information not being circulated as mainstream knowledge, there are many people, including therapists, who are either unfamiliar with DID, do not know about DID (or at least not enough to diagnosis it/notice it), do not believe in DID because they are skeptics themselves, or who do not know how to treat DID.

Not only that, but DID for some reason is harder for a person to grasp than things like demonic possession, so people are going to go to what sounds most "realistic" to them first, instead of trying to make sure that they're correct in their suspicions or do further research and such.


I am sorry though that you had to experience these things. How frustrating!


-Cassandra