Am I being co-conscious? What does it feel like?

I'm a bit confused but I thought that maybe someone have some thoughts on what this could be.

A week ago I had a pretty intense feeling of not really being "here" (in the outside world), like I was watching from inside, although I was in control of the body.

Today I had a similar experience. I had the feeling of being "double", or like I wasn't alone. And then I also felt a kind if distance from the outside world, I don't really know how to describe it, but it was like I was further away from the real world than usual. I still felt like I was in control of my body and everything, and there also was a feeling of being like, empty. Not totally empty but a sense of being almost a shell, as if I was in control of my body but didn't have that much connection to my feelings.

Anyone knows what this could be or has had similar experiences? And then I also wonder what it's like being co-conscious with someone, what it feels like for you. And what does it feel like when you're not in control of the body but still aware of what's going on?

I recently learned I switch after all and am mostly not in control of my body (which is weird. At least I didn't notice it before, maybe it happened much less before.)

Here is a reply which may be helpful:
A host change? WTH? (2nd page, reply by tomboy24)
There are a few things mentioned there that I can relate to. Apart from that:
* Just being aware of what's going on: sometimes it sucks, often I don't care and sometimes I like it (whoever is out (I don't really know them yet) is better equipped to do the job). Now, I usually don't care when someone else is out - it's almost me, except not really me and I don't have control. I think we're very connected
* Co-consciousness: it can go from just being aware I'm not the only one (because of strange feelings and impulses) to constantly debating over what to do (the last thing usually only happens when I'm in control - it seems to disappear once I'm not in control. Which is to be expected, because I'm not the one doing the things. Instead, I'm commenting on others )
* It happens frequently that it feels like I'm in control, but I'm actually not. I discovered this when I tried to move my fingers (see the other thread) and often couldn't. Just couldn't move my fingers, which feels weird and made-up but actually isn't made up (it's real!).
* Often it seems like I was in control moments ago, but once I try whether I'm in control I'm not. I suspect this is because I'm not aware at that moment but, well, the memory comes from the one in control at that time. This happens quite frequently. I actually suspect now this is the way the switching was hidden before - I just wasn't aware and having a memory of behaving (slightly) different just was normal to me.

I hope this helps!

Co-consciousness is more than one of you is aware of what's going on in the outside world at the same time. However, you can be co-conscious without knowing it. Myself, I had to increase my knowledge and awareness of my system in general before I started to notice when I was co-conscious. For me, co-consciousness feels like... driving a car with passengers. I know I'm not alone, the passengers can talk to me if they want to, they're aware of what's going on, but I'm the one driving.

Co-hosting is where more than one of you is in control at the same time. You can co-host without being aware of it as well, but just like with co-consciousness, over time you can begin to become aware of it and notice it. For me, when I'm co-hosting, it's like driving a car with passengers and the steering wheel being in the middle of the car, and we're all grabbing onto the steering wheel or taking turns or stuff like that. I know I'm not alone, the passengers can talk to me if they want to, they're aware of what's going on, they can try to react to things if they want to, and they can take control if I let them/want them to or they can try to take control by simply "shoving" me out of the way.

What you're describing sounds like a mixture of co-consciousness and possibly some co-hosting.


-Cassandra

What you're describing sounds like a mixture of co-consciousness and possibly some co-hosting.

I agree.

I hope you're feeling good now