I'm new to this... I don't know whats wrong with me

Danielle thank you so much for your long reply.
You having some almost identical experiences to me makes me feel not so alone thank you so so much. It is the first time in months I have felt not crazy or like I'm trying to self diagnose.
I'm off to see my T tonight I will let you know how it goes.
Hope you are all well

Alice x

-- Wed Jan 23, 2013 6:24 pm --

Danielle thank you so much for your long reply.
You having some almost identical experiences to me makes me feel not so alone thank you so so much. It is the first time in months I have felt not crazy or like I'm trying to self diagnose.
I'm off to see my T tonight I will let you know how it goes.
Hope you are all well

Alice x

I can relate. Many parts of your story are uncannily like mine. Sigh. Only you are 2 decades younger than I am, so I envy you!

Danielle thank you so much for your long reply.
You having some almost identical experiences to me makes me feel not so alone thank you so so much. It is the first time in months I have felt not crazy or like I'm trying to self diagnose.
I'm off to see my T tonight I will let you know how it goes.
Hope you are all well

I'm glad it helped! Having others validate my experiences has been the biggest help to me, otherwise I probably would have just gave up a long time ago. I always thought I was the only person in the world with experiences like mine, so it was so relieving to know that I wasn't. Even though it's been about 4 months since I've realized my DID I'm still in and out of denial and feeling like I'm crazy a lot. I'm not dx yet, that I know of, so not having that validation is really hard when it comes to keeping myself out of denial.

If you get stuck in denial, I try to think back on all my pre-DID awareness symptoms to pull me out of it. You can't fake something since you were a kid that you had no idea even existed, and since symptoms started when I was so young I believe that probably rules out a lot of other things it could be.

I also try not to worry about the whole 'self diagnosis' thing too. IMO, for me, this should have been caught by doctors 11 years ago. I basically, made it easy on them and did their job for them...or at least gave them a starting point.

How did your appointment go???

I think self diagnosing isn't really OK, but I think there's nothing wrong with examining disorders and trying to understand yourself. As long as you're not getting caught in a diagnosis, it's only learning more about yourself, right? As long as you're not claiming it is it and close your eyes for other possibilities.

As for how people discovered it, there's a whole thread about it:
How did you know you had DID?
It's mainly meant to share the story but I would think it could still be helpful.