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blank found something to do.

blank filled blank space with blanks.

You are filling in the blank space with other things, too! You've been using faces, pictures, and other words! You don't have to only use blanks unless that is all you want to use.

blank is all blank knows.



blank does what you want.
blank says what you want.
blank feels what you want.
blank thinks what you want.
blank trusts what you want.
blank hears what you want.
blank acts how you want.
blank reacts how you want.
blanks is what is wanted.



blank is what is wanted by everyone.
must not upset anyone.




***Possible
Trigger
Warning***

daddy would say "quiet". blank not speak until told or shown it's ok to again.

***End
Possible
Trigger
Warning***






***TRIGGER
WARNING!***

blank's earliest memory is of daddy handing her a baseball bat and asking her to kill him with it.
(We
were
5
years
old).

daddy knelt in front of blank and told her to smash his skull in. mom was sitting next to blank. mom said no. blank freeze. blank did not know what to do. blank was wiped blank. no thoughts. no feelings. no nothing. did not know what to do. mom said "no". daddy said "swing please". what to do? what direction to follow? blank stay frozen. then mom took bat away.

***END
TRIGGER
WARNING***




blank is blank.
blank feels blank.
blank thinks blank.
blank says blank.
blank does blank.




.


(~s
h
a
y~)

&

b
l
a
n
k

Alright, then I'll want something for you. ^^ Then you will have something to do.

Why don't you tell me a story, blank? I want a story that did not really happen - a fiction story. I want a fiction story that no one else except you knows (that means you can't look it up, because if you find it already written, then someone wrote it, so someone knows it). I want it to be a happy story, too. ^^ It can be either long or short, but it has to be more than three sentences long. Can you do that?



If you want a different project, why don't you draw something? Draw a picture of the others in there - Cassie and Kat and Cassandra and Shay and L.C. and Luna and Rain and Shay and Dallas and Damone and Rebel and Kyra and Cassidy. Draw a picture of yourself too, if you can.



If you can't or don't want to, you know Kat likes more than just obedience. Kat likes it when other people do things too. Helpful things. What helpful things can you do? Can you clean something? Is there laundry to fold? Kat doesn't have to be there to tell you what to do, you can try to guess what she might like. Or maybe you can ask her what type of things she likes later. Or ask some of the others what they like to do and try those things. I'm sure Cassie likes more than talking, but maybe you can try talking with her for a while. Maybe you can find something that just makes you happy and try to keep yourself happy when you don't know what else to do. Do you have any books over there? It doesn't matter which one you read. You can read any of them - the first one that gets your attention when you look at them. If you watch TV, watch something happy - maybe a cooking show or a cartoon. Or if you have movies over there, you can watch one of those.

mike wrote blank on phone yesterday. gave orders. blank was ok. blank made sandwich and watched invader zim cartoon.

then blank found maiingan. maiingan give orders to blank. blank was ok.

then blank found nice lady yesterday. lady stayed with blank and maiingan. lady give orders to blank. lady click tongue to talk but blank heard both clicking and words. lady also wrote orders down. that ok. orders are orders. blank was ok.

then blank was with nice lady and cassie. was a man with the nice lady. blank stay out of way. blank was still ok.




blank no good at writing unless told what to write or writing facts...

blank could try to draw.... should blank draw blank from yesterday? yesterday blank was told it was ok to be a girl. so blank dressed as girl. blank is girl but tries hard to be whatever is wanted.

blank not sure of all those names. blank think name of nice lady from yesterday was shay. blank could try to draw her. blank will draw both as told to.


blank only knew kataki like it when you obey. there laundry to clean but blank not know how. blank not know this place.

blank see books that say "calvin and hobbes". only books blank see. blank see one with lot of white on cover. should blank read that one?

blank know show invader zim now. blank will watch that.

Well, if you're not comfortable writing, then don't write. ^^ It's ok. Don't do anything that you are not comfortable doing.

If you don't like to draw, you don't have to. But if you want something to do, you can draw the ones that you do know. If you don't know what they look like, then you don't need to draw them.

Calvin and Hobbes sounds like an ok thing to read, if you're looking for something to do. You could try reading the white book too, but I don't know what's in it, so it might be better to stick with Calvin and Hobbes until you can ask the owner of the white book if you can read it.

I love invader zim! I used to watch that a lot. If you want something to do, invader zim is a good thing to watch.

Also, none of these are orders, ok? These are just suggestions. You don't have to do them, but if you want something to do, you can do these things. ^^ And if you think of other things, you can try those things too. See if you like any of them, and if you like them, do them more often, and if you don't like them, do something else.

You know what? You don't have to obey. That was long ago. That isn't now. Now is different. Now you are able to be yourself.

Is that it? Maybe you don't know who you are? Maybe you could look for that - for a core. Is there something you value? Something you like? It may be anything. Just watch the blankness. Maybe something will come along?

The description you gave of the blankness seemed quite a good description to me. Maybe you could work form there? Maybe you could make anything of it?

Peter Gabriel - A Quiet Moment.

.

blank.

.



white book was a calvin and hobbes book. just different cover. almost all white.





not orders?

blank.

don't know "suggestions". only know orders. only know what told to do. blank. blank. blank.

blanks filled in by others.
blanks filled in by orders.
don't know "suggestions".


.

(blank
ok.
blank
just
very
confused.
blank
not
understand
things
that
aren't
orders).

(~s
h
a
y~)

-- Thu Jan 24, 2013 11:04 am --



blank must obey.
blank need orders.
blanks must be filled.
blanks filled by others.
blanks filled with orders.
blank does what is wanted.
blank is what is wanted.
blanks acts how is wanted.
blank thinks what is wanted.
blank feels what is wanted.
blank is blank.
blank thinks blank.
blank feels blank.
blank does blank.
blanks filled in with blank stay blank.
blank is blank.




(no
one
worry.
blank
not
alone.
blank
be
ok).

(~s
h
a
y~)

I'm glad you can help Blank, Shay I hope Blank can get a sense of who he/she is when the time is right

blank
know
who
blank
is.

blank
just
blank.

blank
is
girl
who
look
little.

look
like
10
or
11
years
old.

but
blank
act
any
age
wanted.

blank
act
like
boy
if
wanted.

blank
tries
to
be
whatever
is
wanted.

not
because
blank
don't
know
who
blank
is.

because
blank
try
not
upset
anyone.

because
blank
is
blank
unless
"filled".

blank
has
one
thought:
"blank".

blank
has
one
feeling:
"blank".

blank
speaks
one
word:
"blank".

blank
stays
blank
because
blank
waits
to
be
told
what
to
feel
and
what
to
think
and
what
to
say.

(shay
lied.
blank
have
two
thoughts:
"blank"
and
"need
orders").


blank
not
know
how
feel
for
self.

blank
not
know
how
think
for
self.

blank
not
know
what
do
for
self.

because
blank
is
blank
and
blank
try
to
please
everyone.

that
why
blank
does
what
told
to
do.




~s
h
a
y~