The "Dark Thread" *Possible Trigger Warning*

I'm not sure is this is the right place to post this, but I kind of feel like I should.

I don't want to hurt other things. I want to hurt myself. So badly I want to cut and cut and cut. I want to see blood flowing, my own blood. Maybe I'd die, but I don't care. I want blood everywhere, to be covered in it.

Jo and her husband told me I could use markers to make the body red. It's helping, but I know it won't satisfy me enough.

I need the blood. - Theresa

AliasForAFew wrote:It's been a while, huh? I feel really... deflated, I guess. I heard there's a lot goin' on with you all, huh? Sorry about all that. Good luck.

To Cassidy; It's nice that you've got you're own little place. I had quite a few of those daydreams this weekend...

....
Luna's still a bit shaken by everything. See, we're the suicidal ones, always have been, but we've never committed it ourselves, not even inside. We've tried on the outside, and we've caused ourselves to pass out and have harmed ourselves on the inside, but we've never actually killed ourselves, and watching it happen to one of us inside, and watching what it did to everyone and everything like that... it really threw us for a loop. Kinda like made us suddenly realize how real it is, even inside, you know? And how much it effects everyone else, despite knowing that no one can truly die/go away on the inside.

Sorry 'bout how you feel, hope you feel better soon. Thanks for the good luck and such. I know things will smooth out again over time.


~L.C.

(Oh, and I don't think Cassidy's here or near right now, but I'll let her know you replied to her)

wronglesson wrote:I'm not sure is this is the right place to post this, but I kind of feel like I should.

I don't want to hurt other things. I want to hurt myself. So badly I want to cut and cut and cut. I want to see blood flowing, my own blood. Maybe I'd die, but I don't care. I want blood everywhere, to be covered in it.

Jo and her husband told me I could use markers to make the body red. It's helping, but I know it won't satisfy me enough.

I need the blood. - Theresa

It'll take a bit before the need for blood fades, but it will fade. It might not go away completely, but it'll fade and get easier to deal/cope with. Something I use to help myself is to drip a bit of water on the marker or something after I color my arm with it, to help make it "run" a bit and seem more like real blood and such.

Another thing that helps is recognizing and knowing why you want to hurt yourself, and working on realizing that you don't deserve to hurt yourself or anything like that.

When it gets really bad for me, I just keep reminding myself that I'm not the only one in this body, and that if I cut, anyone who comes out will have to deal with that pain, including the littles, and that's not fair to them. I also cut on the inside, to help reduce my want to do it on the outside, and I haven't cut on the outside for at least a year now, though I think I'm actually up to 2 or 3 years, and that's after spending at least a couple years of cutting nearly every day. (Although after seeing what happened with Rebel and everything, I think I'll find it a bit easy to lay off the cutting inside for a while, possibly a good long while).


Hope you feel better soon, Theresa.


~L.C.

Burn burn burn - ??

the house is gone daddys gone mummys gone -??

Burn burn burn burn -??

burnt mummie and daddy -??

Burn burn burn -??

WWWWWWWWWIIIIIIIIITTTTTTCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHH
THEY SCREAM -??

Burn burn burn -??

Mummy and daddy burn in hell for being a witch - ??

Burn burn -??

witch witch witch witch -??
Burn -??

tomboy24 wrote:It'll take a bit before the need for blood fades, but it will fade. It might not go away completely, but it'll fade and get easier to deal/cope with. Something I use to help myself is to drip a bit of water on the marker or something after I color my arm with it, to help make it "run" a bit and seem more like real blood and such.

Another thing that helps is recognizing and knowing why you want to hurt yourself, and working on realizing that you don't deserve to hurt yourself or anything like that.

When it gets really bad for me, I just keep reminding myself that I'm not the only one in this body, and that if I cut, anyone who comes out will have to deal with that pain, including the littles, and that's not fair to them. I also cut on the inside, to help reduce my want to do it on the outside, and I haven't cut on the outside for at least a year now, though I think I'm actually up to 2 or 3 years, and that's after spending at least a couple years of cutting nearly every day. (Although after seeing what happened with Rebel and everything, I think I'll find it a bit easy to lay off the cutting inside for a while, possibly a good long while).


Hope you feel better soon, Theresa.


~L.C.

I cut on the inside. All over. Nadia says it looks like I got ran over with a lawnmower. It does help some. I haven't cut the body for a month.

I get mad that Jo washes off the red marks I make. So this time I used a permanent marker. It's a darker red so it looks more like blood.

I don't know what's going on in my head. I keep just getting flashes of all the horrible and mean things people said to me. No one was nice to me ever, except Jo's grandma and husband. So many mean things...so I then get flashes of just cutting up my body. Even as far as cutting off fingers and toes. I can't stop thinking about it. - Theresa

Want to cook and eat human flesh ribs ribs ribs - ??

Mummy burnt in the flames came back to reap revenge -??
BURN BURN BURN -??

wronglesson wrote:I cut on the inside. All over. Nadia says it looks like I got ran over with a lawnmower. It does help some. I haven't cut the body for a month.

I get mad that Jo washes off the red marks I make. So this time I used a permanent marker. It's a darker red so it looks more like blood.

I don't know what's going on in my head. I keep just getting flashes of all the horrible and mean things people said to me. No one was nice to me ever, except Jo's grandma and husband. So many mean things...so I then get flashes of just cutting up my body. Even as far as cutting off fingers and toes. I can't stop thinking about it. - Theresa

Um... If Jo works at all or sees people in public, that's why she washes off the marker, and she has every right to and should have that choice. We never color the arms with permanent marker, unless we're doing a tattoo design, and even then we have to make sure it's ok first. I'm not trying to get on you or make you feel horrible, so don't, I was just trying to point out why Jo probably washes it off because I know that Cassandra and Rain and others didn't like the marks, especially in public, and it's their body too so they have every right to be able to wash it off if they want.

Those are flashbacks, and they can be tough to deal with, but cutting isn't the answers, and you don't deserve to hurt, you don't deserve to be in pain, you don't deserve to be cut up, and you don't deserve to hurt yourself. You never deserved to be told such lies, either. Don't believe them. Fight believing them all you can. Believe and trust in the ones that are nice to you, because they're telling the truth, and they're the honest ones. Trust in Jo's grandma and husband. Don't listen or trust any of the mean things that were said to you. Not a single one, because they're wrong. You're perfectly fine the way you are, you've done nothing wrong, you're not dirty in any way, you're not deserving of any type of punishment, none of that stuff. Remind yourself of that and try to repeat that instead of listening to all the mean lies.


~L.C.

spanky_spee wrote:Want to cook and eat human flesh ribs ribs ribs - ??

Mummy burnt in the flames came back to reap revenge -??
BURN BURN BURN -??

Not sure how to respond, but I'm glad you can express yourself here. Hello and welcome.


~L.C.

like the dark want to hurt not allowed to hurt never will be want to go home rusty chains and rusty scapels bodys burning-??

mother will burn them all
heheehe buuuuurrrrrrnnnnn!!!!! ssshhh! were not here host will hear and get frightened -??

The mother is a ######6 @@@@@@@ who needs to chill the ###$ out and go see her own therapist.

Needed needed needed to cut. To bleed. So did G. Marker/painted some nasty looking gashes instead and snapped a rubber band on them a couple times. Not prefect but... Better than nothing. It did help a little. I wish we could find the face-paint kit though. I could do way better with that $#%^. Ah well.
I guess I do feel better.

I guess I get the $#%^ about everyone else feeling body pain. We all feel gross, runny nose, sore throat, and this ######6 wisdom tooth!
This poor kid... I heard her talking to Rebecca about how she didn't feel well. I... Don't know how to feel about it.
(Jacob)

Progress! Hurray!
Oh shuddap.

dad red
mum black
BURNT BURNT BURNT

witches witches

they burnt the witches

cats and dogs cats and dogs

they burnt mummy

she black like the robes of the priest

-?? -??

How about using finger paints?