The "Dark Thread" *Possible Trigger Warning*

I will do as I will, but I understand now is not the time. Jo's support must end. She is getting close too fast, or I would have not made myself known until that time. Her support must end, she must go back and go through that exquisite pain she did before. Losing everything she loves again and again, until she accepts my purpose.

I will not kill now, but I will want and dream and plan.

If you don't mind me asking, why do you believe Jo deserves this, and what is your purpose?

~Marie

Jo was a bad girl. Not perfect, the mother wanted her to be like a doll. She is flawed. She was built out of sin, she can be nothing else but deserving of pain.

My purpose? It is to punish her. To follow the path the mother, and by that I mean the adoptive mother, followed. I am here to strip Jo of any enjoyment, any support. Which is why, in some way, the first to go is her husband. She does not deserve his love. He would be better off dead than with her.

No one is perfect, and if you are religious, depending on your beliefs, you believe that everyone is born with sin, and that you can be forgiven/cleansed through God and/or Jesus Christ. The idea that people can be perfect is flawed in itself, since no person can ever be perfect. It is impossible.

Why do you wish to follow the path of the adoptive mother? You don't seem like the type to blindly follow another, so I'm wondering how you can follow without questioning what/who you're following.

I am glad you can express yourself here, and I mean no offense, but I hope you don't succeed in your goals. I don't see Jo as deserving of any of this, she has been through enough pain in her life already, more than she deserved in the first place, and I would be very sad if you were able to cause her more pain.

Are there things you enjoy besides punishing Jo? Do you have a purpose past punishing Jo? What would you do if you weren't a part of Jo, if you were your separate person with your own body and such (and didn't know Jo or anything, as in, you had your own life without Jo, the others, or anyone else ever being a part of it)?


~Marie

Oh. Well. ... I don't know how to respond to that.
As for schools, we figure it's fine. G plans on following Rebecca around... Get an apartment in the area, get a job, go to community college. Look for opportunities in the field she wants to go in. I guess we've got a plan...I think it's kind of stalkery and clingy myself. "ooh Rebecca, let me follow you around the country let's live togeethheeerrr." Eck.
We've been together for over 3.5 years. I feel like wanting to stay close to her makes sense...
###$ off please.
No? I'm going to do a layout of everything I'm aware of so far... We'll see where that takes us
-G

AliasForAFew wrote: Oh. Well. ... I don't know how to respond to that.
As for schools, we figure it's fine. G plans on following Rebecca around... Get an apartment in the area, get a job, go to community college. Look for opportunities in the field she wants to go in. I guess we've got a plan...I think it's kind of stalkery and clingy myself. "ooh Rebecca, let me follow you around the country let's live togeethheeerrr." Eck.

You don't have to have a response.
That's not that bad. There's nothing wrong with wanting to follow someone you're involved with or that means a lot to you or that you care for. Doesn't sound stalkery or clingy at all. Cassandra knows lots of people that have followed people they're with.

AliasForAFew wrote:We've been together for over 3.5 years. I feel like wanting to stay close to her makes sense...

Wow! Congratulations on that! My longest relationship is the one I'm currently in now (just hit the 2 year mark). I hope things continue to go well with you!

AliasForAFew wrote: ###$ off please.

Not meaning to offend or anything, but is that type of response really necessary? It's not like G did anything wrong or was trying to upset you. She was just explaining why she'd made the choice that she did.

Other than that, I'm still thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way, Jacob.


~Luna

AliasForAFew wrote:No? I'm going to do a layout of everything I'm aware of so far... We'll see where that takes us
-G

Like Luna suggested, maybe you could have everyone type or write out things they're happy with, things they're unhappy with, what they'd like to change, and such, to help you get a better idea of everyone and maybe help know how to try and smooth things out a bit between all of you? Since they're able to post separately on here, you could maybe send PMs to yourself or something like that (you can PM yourself on here, we've tried it). Just trying to help come up with something to help everyone be more aware of everyone else and their needs/wants/likes/etc.

-Cassandra

-- Fri Feb 01, 2013 12:51 pm --

i want to play with an animal...
to pull out fur or feather, to grab on to limbs to pull or swing, to make them fly even if they were not made to, to see their blood stain the ground red...
this is how i play....i am told it is wrong and so i am not allowed to play with animals....but i do not care if it is wrong....it is how i play...and how i like to play...

i saw a nature show where killer whales were playing with a seal they had caught and were going to eat... but first they played catch with it among each other... animals have all the fun...

if only i could be a snake... if only my spit could actually blind and my teeth were actually fangs and my body was sleek and fast... oh, red spitting cobra, how i wish to be you at times...

cassidy i dream of the same things.

i dream of seeing how strong a cat tail is, can you really swing them by it? i want to see if a bird can fly when you rip out all their feathers.

mostly i want to see the insides. animals can rip each other apart, why can't we do the same to see and maybe even taste the insides?

Wow! Congratulations on that! My longest relationship is the one I'm currently in now (just hit the 2 year mark). I hope things continue to go well with you!

Thank you I hope thinks continue to go well with you and yours.

Not meaning to offend or anything, but is that type of response really necessary? It's not like G did anything wrong or was trying to upset you. She was just explaining why she'd made the choice that she did.

Other than that, I'm still thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way, Jacob.


~Luna

God, this is the second time I have to type this. ######6 internet pissed out on us.
She butted in and I'm sick of that, among other stupid things she does. I'm so ######6 tired of her. And the wall that keeps popping up. And just... ######6 god dammit.
I'm sick of this $#%^ already.
(Jacob)

It seems that we are reaching another boiling point. Exciting. I shall endeavor to have a thread posted in which we can all contribute and hopefully gain insight from others on this forum. From there we shall take it to other forms of communication with each other, thank you for letting us know that we can message our own account, that is very useful.

- Eric

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Yeah, Cassidy. I would love to split something in half and watch it bleed. Poke around on the insides.
Of course, I'm not aloud to do anything fun. : -P
(Jacob)

AliasForAFew wrote:

Wow! Congratulations on that! My longest relationship is the one I'm currently in now (just hit the 2 year mark). I hope things continue to go well with you!

Thank you I hope thinks continue to go well with you and yours.

Thanks!

-Cassandra

AliasForAFew wrote:God, this is the second time I have to type this. ######6 internet pissed out on us.
She butted in and I'm sick of that, among other stupid things she does. I'm so ######6 tired of her. And the wall that keeps popping up. And just... ######6 god dammit.
I'm sick of this $#%^ already.
(Jacob)

The site's been crashing on us all week, it's very frustrating, but nothing I can do about it so no point in getting upset over it.

Maybe you can work out a deal to where your posts are your posts and only you get to post during that time or something? I know communication isn't that great, but that's why you have to work on it. Communications can get better if you work on them, and that will help you to be able to work together a lot better.

Alters are like family. You're going to step on each other's toes once in a while. But no one's going anywhere so there's no point in letting it get to you that much because no matter how sick of it you get, that's not going to make anything go away. You have to work on it to help make it better, and just like family, you have to tolerate each other a lot sometimes. Working on communication, understanding each other, accepting each other as they are, and compromising with each other helps things a lot. I hope you all can work on those things to help make it better for all of you. I'm sure you're not the only unhappy one, Jacob. But I am sorry you're so unhappy with your situation. I hope it gets better soon. I know it'll get better eventually, because things get better over time if you help them to/let them, but I hope it happens sooner rather than later for you.

~Luna

AliasForAFew wrote:It seems that we are reaching another boiling point. Exciting. I shall endeavor to have a thread posted in which we can all contribute and hopefully gain insight from others on this forum. From there we shall take it to other forms of communication with each other, thank you for letting us know that we can message our own account, that is very useful.

- Eric

You're welcome. I hope everything's able to work out and get better for you all soon. It sounds like there needs to be a lot more communication going on, so I hope you can find ways to work on that and make it better.

~Luna

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AliasForAFew wrote:Yeah, Cassidy. I would love to split something in half and watch it bleed. Poke around on the insides.
Of course, I'm not aloud to do anything fun. : -P
(Jacob)

i am allowed to do as i wish in a certain area that marie often takes me to... other than that i rely on daydreams and wishes, writing out fantasies, and researching serial killers... luckily that is enough to quench my desires, though i shall always wonder, what it's like for real... i understand, though, that not all share my views on what is fun, and that is why i am not allowed to do whatever i want. *shrugs* fine. i'll take what i can get, and play in my daydreams, and watch my serial killers, putting myself in their shoes and imagining... sometimes i think i come close to it being as good as the real thing... something is always better than nothing...

oh, hannibal the cannibal lecter, how i love to watch you work... how i love to speak with you and imagine myself doing the things you do... you are my main escape...


*hiiiissssssssss*

It's been a while, huh? I feel really... deflated, I guess. I heard there's a lot goin' on with you all, huh? Sorry about all that. Good luck.

To Cassidy; It's nice that you've got you're own little place. I had quite a few of those daydreams this weekend...