Progress with new alter.

Hey everyone. Just wanted to share some progress I have made with a new alter. I'm actually feeling really good and I suppose on some level quite excited about him. In my previous post I explained how I had been trying to push him away because I didn't feel I could handle another one but I took the advice I was given and decided not to view this as a negative thing.

For the last hour or so I've been speaking to him. I just relaxed and waited for him to make an appearance. I asked him a few questions about himself including his name. He'd already told me his name was Dean before but I felt the need to ask him again. This time he said he was Dean McGowan. For some reason all my alters have last names.

After speaking with him we both came up with a conclusion of what he might represent. From quite a young age I felt I had to grow up and become an adult. I feel I missed the back end of my childhood and my teenage years. I have never for a second felt like a teenager and I think this drove a bit of a wedge between me and my peers as I could never really relate to them having felt more like an adult. I guess I had to take care of myself emotionally so I needed to grow up in order to do this. Part of me feels I have missed out greatly on certain experiences that a normal child/teenager would have done.
Dean to me feels like he symbolizes youth. With all my alters I like to use one word to describe what they represent and Dean very much feels like youth.
He seems laid back, doesn't care about a lot of things, like's to do whatever he wants, doesn't like authority figures telling him what to do. I never ever really felt like this. I've always felt bossed around by authority figures and they scare me but he seems to have a f**k you attitude to them. I think Dean is that mischievous,carefree,excitable youthful part of me that I missed out on.
He isn't a teenager or a child (He's 22) but he does seem to represent suppressed feelings from my childhood/adolescence.

One thing we didn't talk about was his accent. He is American which I find odd as I'm English and so are my alters. I wondered why I had an American alter and I think I understand why. As a kid most TV shows I watched were American so most of my childhood heroes were American. I feel like Dean is the kind of guy that, as a child, I would have idolized and looked up to, much like I did with TV characters, hence why he is American.

Anyway that's all for now. I feel I've learnt quite a lot in that hour and now I'm not feeling so upset or stressed over having him around.
- Hunter

This is great progress Congratulations

That is great! I secretly wish I could do that with my new alter, but to be honest I don't think she actually exists no matter what my husband says.

I'm so happy for you that you had such a good time with Dean. Congratulations on making such huge progress in such little time! Alysone

Thanks everyone. I was very pleased to get that much information from him and so early on. I'm feeling pretty positive about things. However this morning I'm slightly annoyed.
*Might trigger*
I managed to have a lucid dream this morning but pretty much from the beginning I didn't feel I was in control which was strange. I guess I was conscious but not in control of my body. Well I knew something was wrong pretty much straight away when "I" decided to make loads of women appear and much like the previous dream I mentioned in the other post "I" ended up sleeping with some random woman. This was very disturbing for me and I didn't enjoy it one bit but I couldn't wake myself up because whoever was in charge of my dream body was very much having fun.
And guess who has been very quiet this morning? *sigh* I guess this is what to be expected with a mischievous alter.

*Might trigger*
I managed to have a lucid dream this morning but pretty much from the beginning I didn't feel I was in control which was strange. I guess I was conscious but not in control of my body. Well I knew something was wrong pretty much straight away when "I" decided to make loads of women appear and much like the previous dream I mentioned in the other post "I" ended up sleeping with some random woman. This was very disturbing for me and I didn't enjoy it one bit but I couldn't wake myself up because whoever was in charge of my dream body was very much having fun. And guess who has been very quiet this morning? *sigh* I guess this is what to be expected with a mischievous alter.

Fun, or.. well, a thought - he might find himself to dream lucidly too and have you be the one that does things he doesn't agree with or enjoy. It's as much is dream as it is yours

I'm glad you're reaching him though and getting so much information

lifelongthing wrote:he might find himself to dream lucidly too and have you be the one that does things he doesn't agree with or enjoy. It's as much is dream as it is yours

You could be right but I get the sense he's doing it just to make himself known. I think he's still a bit annoyed that I pushed him away for so long so perhaps this is pay back lol.

Yeah that might be it Well you had it coming then Hope he stops humoring himself in that way if it is just for show then I know you do enjoy it (the dreaming) a lot. Best of luck