Talking about our inner world

Lin and me and aurora and R share a space inside. We live in the dark part of the inner world so our traumas don't effect the others (and Aurora and R live with us for support). Now we are all getting more stable and happy and our space is starting to disappear. It's sort of getting translucent. I wonder where we'll live when we're ready to leave the dark part again since when you're in that dark part, your part of the inner world just gets transported there - but eventually me and Lin made our own space together in there.

Lin will probably go live with the other Lin's in the "Lin part" inside (they have their own part, all the ones that are named Lin[something]) and maybe Aurora and R will go back to the "orphanage" inside. But I don't want to go back to living in the castle in the clouds. I don't wanna stop living with Lin I hope she doesn't go to live with the other Lin's because probably I can't live there with her even though it's so pretty and nice there.. I'm wondering what will happen to the house though.

I know no one can help me with this but I just wanted to tell someone so I could talk to someone who would understand I'm just curious and kinda nervous as I don't know what's going to happen

Thanks for sharing with us

I dont know what our inner world is like Im not sure I have one really when the others are out thats my resting time so I just sleep I guess...and the others dont really talk about what its like for them maybe they just sleep mostly to. Or my guess is they just dont want me to know yet but thats okay they will when they are ready maybe one of them will come talk about it if they want

Ashley (BT)

Hi,
If it helps any, I noticed in our system when there is a restructuring, things or even people disappear, then reappear healed/transformed.

We also have two levels of houses, the trauma and non-trauma house, those of the non-trauma can go to the trauma house, but not the other way around just due to the nature of the house and laws of it's region/internal physics. So say with one of my protectors, disappeared for a couple/few months(freaked me out btw), then he reappeared as a ISH of sorts. Another example would be my father introject, they seemed to have integrated/merged into one, then disappeared, then reappeared and called themselves/himself my gatekeeper. He also changed his appearance to resemble my original ISH, but more muscular and taller. With regards to internal structures(atmosphere as well), I've also noticed a disappearing then reappear restructured depending on what work I've done. So like when I work on my boundaries, I noticed the fenceline on my internal world was suddenly in states of repair, another example would be a classroom suddenly appeared with a teacher inside, and other stuff.

So how does the disappearing feel to you? Even if it's fearful, I think it's important to validate that fear, and see how in the past or talk to the one who holds that fear, as to why they feel the change is fearful(or whatever emotion) and how to help that one cope with the change.

Thank you both for answering

I hope you get to know more in time Ashley

So how does the disappearing feel to you? Even if it's fearful, I think it's important to validate that fear, and see how in the past or talk to the one who holds that fear, as to why they feel the change is fearful(or whatever emotion) and how to help that one cope with the change.

Mostly I'm just scared I'll have to live alone again because I love living with Lin and she's my favourite person in the whole world Aurora calls her "mommy" so I think she'd want to stay too or at least get attention from her still but Lin says she'll of course stay the one who takes care of the kids no matter where we live so that will be okay. But I don't wanna live alone It'll be really nice to come out of the dark place again but not all alone cause then I'd rather stay I hope it turns out great though

Thank you for sharing so much about your system. I feel a bit safer about it now

Tomorrow we are having a day for just us kids to be out. Almost no one have been out for like almost 1 1/2 weeks now and Leo, Lin & emma are going to talk about what's going to happen with the house. So we're having a day with our SO where some of us are going to watch a movie, l is going to bake, Eliesa is going to the library and eat cake, Sia will get to eat cake too, I get to have lunch or dinner I'm not sure yet, Aurora will get to come out for a little bit to play with one of the teddies, Isalin can come out to draw, Frankie can be read Donald Duck to etc The SO said she's missed us so much so she wants a whole day with us to just do nice things like that. So today us kids won't be out much because the adults is cleaning the entire apartment so we don't have to do those things tomorrow

So while we have fun hopefully they figure out everything with the house
**trigger warning**
I realized late yesterday why it scared me to live alone. I used to live alone but I could go to Lin and she could come to me so even if we didn't share the same house I know she'd come be with me lots anyway. But when Lind doesn't live with me she gets suicidal She's tried several times before and it scares me lots I don't want it to happen again and she confessed to our SO that she's already feeling it a little bit because she doesn't know if she's going to stay with me or not. I don't want that I want Lin and she's so much happier now, I don't want that to change because I love her lots and lots
**trigger warning end**

But then maybe we will know tomorrow evening or something so then maybe everything will work itself out