Click made whole...

Click is our non-human, blind, mute alter. Grey and mostly 'mouth', we took to using a male pronoun with (him) which was never objected to. Back when Click first came to the system, 'he' mentioned being 'three'. We thought it was 3 of the same grey figure he was...

Recently, a silver orb came from the basement and began mimicking whatever it saw. Click tried hard to capture it and indicated this was part of (him) - his eyes.

Also (trigger warning for violence) that Vitelle had been the one to separate them, taking his mouth/voice as well.

Vitelle, who is kind of our darkest alter/violent/hateful - is currently going through a metamorphis of sorts. She is cocooned but has come out three times to me. I asked her if she could tell me about this and she admitted she had done it. Long story short - she gave me the information on how to find the 3rd part...and how to entice these two to be in the same room as Click; and that they would become one again when this happened. It did last night! Click is now a little girl, grey skin, black hair, silver irises...She said "It is good to be whole" and passed out and I haven't had a chance to see how she is or how the rest of the family is doing with this change but I'm just so happy for what Click was so excited to happen.... and that even though Vitelle had asked me what she would get in return for the information (and I said I had nothing to give her but the knowledge she helped put her back together....) and worrying that they will never forgive her or like her....she gave me the information anyway.

Vitelle is so vulnerable right now... she wants to be loved and worries no one will actually love her. I'm not sure what to tell her. Click, when I told (him/her) that Vitelle was trying to make ammends, still curled up in a ball and just shook. I told Vitelle it will take time to heal the hurt and for Click to trust her again.... The twins said they were angry with her but were trying to put that aside... I advised them it was ok to tell her they were angry, but then also tell her the other half of that which is they expressed they still love her.

I'm hoping this is what they need...to be able to express themselves honestly, not ignore feelings, or try to 'spare' Vitelle from the responsibility of the feelings her actions caused...but then help them move forward in forgiveness and love.

A lot of this happens pretty rapid-fire. If anyone has other advice on how to help them reconcile after such a great pain/harm , but obvious regret from Vitelle... I don't want to minimize or dismiss the hurt that was caused, but I also just ache for Vitelle who is not sure how to make ammends and worries she will never be good enough to be loved purely...

I am so happy to hear Click was able to heal so well Congratulations! She will need time, I'm sure, but both she and the host is young - so that shouldn't be much a problem

Thinking of you

I think the only thing that really helps is time and talking. All are hurt.

I'm happy for you there's so much progress with Vitelle. She regrets and is afraid she cannot be loved enough. This is progress! When I see how she was previously (Trigger US School tragedy...what if it was DID). Maybe it is good for her to know all people make mistakes but all can be loved again after they face what they have done and truly regret what they did... and she regrets it. She wants to come clean. She wants to be loved again.

I don't know how it was previously with Vitelle but I would expect there was a reason she was so violent. Knowing it had meaning may help ease the pain/regret (for all).