Home for the holidays

Hi, I was here before and haven't been on at all for months. In the Subject, I'm referring to this board as home. You all made me feel welcome to be here and welcome to return. It's the nicest place I can be this time of year.

I have nothing to do for this week except a little paperwork to keep me busy. I'm trying not to let sadness and disappointment surface or spill out.

In case you're wondering who I am, I was here before trying to figure out if I have alters. I'm not diagnosed with DID. It was hard to ask my P about it and he kind of laughed it off. But other than the laughter, he said my amount of dissociation was expected with my experiences.

I would just like to disappear into a daydream until mid January. Last year I was essentially in bed from October to around March of this year. I'm not that depressed now. But every year, I don't seem to progress socially. So this time of magical togetherness leaves some of us out in the cold. I used to hope for a future with no chaos and exchanging presents with nice people. But I'm single at 50 and it's too late for kids, so I just sweat out every year ending.

Thank you for letting me rest my head here. I wish all of you peace.

We know how you feel about this place being home. We hope you have as good a day as possible. It's never too late to find good people to have in your life though and we hope you find those eventually. No matter what, you have us on here though. Hoping you get through this time alright. Thinking of you.

i say everything lifelongthing said!

i'm sorry you're having a tuff time right now but you're always welcome here and i hope this place helps you feel better even if you can only really vent or sumthing! *hugs if wanted!*

i hope you feel better soon.

-cassie