Handlers / xes traffickers... MASSIVELY TRIGGERING

lifelongthing wrote:**trigger warning**
we accept the love we think we deserve.
With time, I hope the parts that have suffered through this will heal in knowing they deserve more. Without saying too much to trigger the others, I can say that we relate. I hope you and others will be able to show them love, caring and understanding on their path to freedom. Blessings, Leo.

W thank you a lot, Leo. That means a lot to us. We are sorry that you went through this, as well

I answered your PM.

We thank you for that.

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ypu asked if alters can help the "whores". We still use that name, but we were often called dirty little slut too. We have been paid a little after out "uncles" took money... we have be lent at a price for othres desires. Others aslo paid our "uncles" to watch us do acts etc..We feel our most important role in life is to be very sexual and seduce men. We have been with both male and female and we prefere female , but the body is hetero. Other alters try to show that the system has safe neat stuff she can do, enjoy and be proud of. Her worth is not what she can do to please a man. For a couple years we were passed around a pro- football team. they had a condo for their hang out and I also worked at their legit bar/restsurrant as a hostess too. this was before drug tests and when the underground lives were never spoke of.They paid and also forced drugs a bit. We really really miss being hurt and used and beauriful. That is who we are.It means we exist and are special... Who we were taught to be. We try to helpp a part called dirty as che cannnot feel clean and tha t runs thru us all. Appreciating what the sexual ones did for us is a big step. They are actully not all sexual, they just go thru the motions to do what is right for teh hall.. they protected us and we show them how they are so helpful in the system here and now. Been many years since the "whores" parts have done favors . We are lucky to have such caring parts. They protected us form so many things ...toddler to recently. I hope your system can h elp

Ell is a person inside who is a multiple herself, but Ell is also a religion, a world view, a culture, a place/location inside, a language, a vocation, and a community. It's a sub system, i suppose, because the entire Ell system is separate from us and derives 100% from Ell and only Ell. They are Ell's others... and hers alone, and somehow they fit together to really be Ell. Don't know if I am making sense. But anyways for example, inside, the Ells all share an astral body that people outside of Ell see (beyond their gate where me and linn and lola and everyone else who is NOT Ell are located) but in their realm (near the waterfall and inside their gate), they are all separate and have their own astral bodies, but only the Ells can see eachother as they are (well Linn too, but that's a whole other post). So anyway, Ell is many, many, many. we usually call her Ell or the Ells, and unless they specify who is there, we won't always know. Does this make any sense? Hah, it's hard to explain. 

Lifelong; I loved that picture thank you for sharing galaxies, no that doesn't confuse me at all, it makes sense. Very interesting; thank you for sharing about that

Dianezz, wow, that is incredible that you all have been able to withstand that. We have been with men and women too, but not willingly - been made to be slaves for men and women. Luckily, we are all asexual so do not have to worry about willingly being with people and triggering ourselves. You guys are amazing overcomes, though, wow!

You are very welcomed indeed.

thank you sacred_unspoken I appreciate that comment. Thank you to any one who read my post. I feel guilty telling stories as I feel I am so unworthy of anything. To be accepted here is amazing

If I may write to you dianezz, this is my view of everyone - you included: people, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
You are a good person who is doing what she can to heal. I am very sorry to hear what you have been through. We support your journey by sending good, healing thoughts your way - should you accept them.