Incessant Need to Hit the Road * Possible Trigger*

Not sure if it is just winter snow making me feel the deeply persistent internal call to hit the open road again. Money is always an issue but that is a transitory monthly problem. I need a better c.d. player in order to blue tooth my cell tunes into. *very soon* Music+swisher cigars=my internal traveler side being happy. Working two jobs and college will start again but that is why they have online courses right. I don't know if anyone else has trouble remembering and forcing themselves to pay bills...so need auto bill pay. One less headache. People think they know me. They think I can connect for life. Sadly, that just isn't the real me. I knew getting off a med would make me feel better but not handle stress as well.

Hi Shivaatlantis,

When you say 'hit the road', are you wanting to wanting to 'run away' or 'seek solutions', or is it a concern that you're going to 'just keep walking' and 'never look back'?

I ask because I've experienced 2 episode's of DA where I have wandered far from home in a Disassociative state & have 'came into awareness' far from home, dressed inappropriately for the weather/with no wallet/ID or money to get transport home.

Both episode's only lasted a day but this is DA. Just trying to work out if you feel like a DA Episode is coming on, or if you have a travel bug or the desire to hide/seek through travel.

Yes I am absolutely hopeless at paying bills. I don't even realize I've been paid until days after the fact.

As soon as I realize there is money in my account, I transfer a set amount to each utility/rent/savings etc so that my bills are usually mostly paid in advance & I don't get nasty 'bill debit' surprises that leave my account at 0