Just an intro with a little description

Hi, I call myself Delete here because that’s my talent, I delete things somehow from my memory. Anyway, I have only had amnesia once that I know of. I woke up and the rage was someone else’s. It just melted away, as I had none of those feelings. I’ve been aware of an infant (in its body), a young child (maybe 6-8 ish) my body, suddenly becoming my full height again without realizing I had been feeling so much shorter, things like that. I think it’s definitely over dramatized. I’m not really worried, because I don’t think I lose time. I really don’t have any major concern about this, just want to know what the heck is going on. I didn’t really even think about this as anything at all until I found out someone had diagnosed me with PTSD, (along with some other stuff). My current T has called this DID. That’s definitely overstated!!! Sure, I probably have some parts, but it’s not like there’s really major life issues. My exhaustion is my big hurdle. Also, antidepressants really don’t work very well with me. So, it’s trying to find a doctor that will refill my adderol (so?) or bumble along. Anyway, hello and gotta go... I have an appointment...

Hi Delete, an interesting introduction!

I would continue to talk to your T about potential diagnoses, including DID. A lot of us with DID are high functioning in more than one area of life and many of us at some point felt we didn't have enough chaos, damage, or memory loss for DID. I was in that situation years ago. I guess I'm saying that DID has a really wide range of manifestations. And the worst stuff is almost always masked or hidden from the parts of you who have to live daily life.

It was the years of relative calm that kept me thinking "I can't have DID, I don't lose time, I don't have the hallmarks of DID" -- at least as I understood them. I've almost never lost time in adulthood, yet I definitely have DID. I've spent a lot of my adult life with others fronting and though I was often frustrated with how "I" spent "my" time, I just figured it must be me wasting time because I remembered everything.

I may not have to point out that by saying your talent is deleting memories, you're acknowledging that memories are being disappeared or covered up. Two phrases you used -- "definitely over dramatized" and "definitely overstated" -- stand out for me. A lot of us with dissociative disorders carry an attitude of "it's no big deal, I'm not some total mess." And no, you're probably not. But the more you read about how the functional parts of persons with a dissociative disorder operate, the more this specific point of view can suggest other things may be going on.