Losing Access To My Thoughts

Hey, I have this problem, when I wake up all the chatter is there clearly

But after around 5 minuets of being awake my mind goes mostly blank for the rest of the day

What is going on?

Thanks

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Anyway hang in there

Maybe with waking, no one not actively fronting, retreats?

Maybe, I feel so stupid sometimes. One of the people I mentioned it to said, "woa, imagine just reacting to stimuli" it's really not like that lol