Are people with OSDD (1b?) able to do this too?

Figuring out what subset of OSDD I have has been really difficult as I can’t find many good resources and the symptoms are hard to understand. I think that I may be OSDD 1b, at least have some form of OSDD, but the thing that really gets me on OSDD vs DID is blacking out/“co-hosting.” I’m going to use the term co-hosting for when I’m here (the core/original) in the background, watching, but someone else is also out.

From what I can tell, 1b means that you don’t have any amnesia and don’t black out at all, only co-host, but I do both! I mainly co-host a lot to my knowledge, but after realizing with the help of a friend that I have alters, I’ve realized I’ve blacked out before and have no knowledge of what happened during that time besides the small bits and pieces of what people told me.

I already experience things sometimes where I seemingly blacked out for a few seconds or I think I blacked out for 2 hours at work as suddenly 2 hours just went by. There are traumatic events I know I’ve blacked out on too though. When I was around 10 years old, I apparently said something about wanting to kill myself. I don’t remember telling my parents this, I don’t know if I said it calmly or threatening to do it, all I remember is that I was backed into a corner by my parents while crying, feeling oddly dysphoric, and confused as to what was going on. Saying I was going to kill myself isn’t like me already, even if I did feel that way, my parents wouldn’t have reached the way they did if I had calmly said that I have suicidal thoughts.

I ended up going with my dad to the hospital and the doctor asked what was going on and I didn’t remember at the time. I’ve also seemed to have blacked out maybe a good three weeks of my mom being in the mental hospital. I talked about it to her before and I never realized how long it was and just have no memory of it, even though I apparently visited her before during it. I also know that an alter keeps traumatic memories from me, the core, which I think I’ve read that 1b types don’t have alters that can do that.

I don’t think I fit 1b, any other OSDD, or DID correctly to meet any full criteria or maybe I’m missin something? If you need to ask questions, please do! I’d appreciate the help. I’d talk to a therapist, but I have issues with getting into contact with one. I understand that not everyone’s a pro, but I would appreciate help.

Hello there. I hope that this post finds you and everyone else doing well.

By the way that you are describing things, I'd think that you might be DID and not OSDD-1b since there are black outs involved. Even if you are mostly co-conscious, the fact that you have had black out moments might qualify you for the DID diagnosis. Unless, perhaps you might be 1a instead of 1b?

I'm honestly not sure, personally, but if you could get in touch with a professional who could help you sort this out, that might help to put you more at ease. Although I completely understand if it's not possible for you to seek one out at this time. In any case, I thought I would give my two cents, especially seeing how you haven't gotten any other responses on this post.

Wishing you all the best,
Mosaic Butterflies