Im stuck in 24/7 deja :(

Basically what the title says


I have always suffered from some form of anxiety and OCD throughout the years from childhood, But for some reason for months now things have changed.

I am stuck in 24/7 deja vu all my physical anxiety symptoms and all my other things have seemed to disappear and im stuck with this deja vu.

Let me explain: Basically I keep getting random memories that flash up in my mind, or random memories just appear in my thoughts. Sometimes there is loads a day other days there is not so many. Basically my mind just doesn't shut the hell up its constantly got things in it like music being stuck in my head random songs appearing, random words, made up stories and false memories of things. Everything I do, read,eat,watch,talk too,see etc is like im stuck in some time loop and im reliving life over again.

I had a massive panic attack in October hospital really high heart rate to the point that if i couldn't bring my heart rate down they were going to give me something to bring it down. High temperature ended up with a saline drip in and paracetamol was absolutely terrified. I had a viral infection and because of my anxiety i thought there was something really wrong since then things have been worse than they have ever been . I possibly suffer from BPD aswell i have been told this by the MH team at my local a and e when i went there because i was having a low mood day and couldn't handle the deja vu any more,

Some days like today I am in a ok mood but the deja vu is still present.

I never know what my mood will be

I asked someone on the mind website if they had experienced anything like this and they told me it was some form of dissociation/derelisation.

I used to get moments of deja vu through my whole life. Never thought anything of it. However in may I had really strong deja vu and for some reason i got really panicky about it .

I had a bad experience with smoking what i have now been told was a legal high at the time i thought it was just cannabis in 2008 and something really messed up happened i ended up having a massive panic attack ended up out my body and i was terrified I thought I was dying and I ended up a big mess for a long time... I cant remember if i had constant deja vu then.

Im just looking for some advice thats all.