A difference in opinion - rocking the boat.

In and amongst many problems I'm having in my life, something has cropped up that I don't really know what to do about. I'm not terribly distressed by it, only a little concerned and unsure what to do/who to ask.

One part of me is making herself known in my awareness a lot at the moment. She's, well, horny. She thinks about sex a lot and makes it known to me. Whether in images/ ideas or shared emotions which is a little odd.

Well that in itself doesn't bother me, except I am single, I have been for some time and will be for some time to come. Unlike me, she is very much interested in any form of sex, no matter the boundary crossed. If I were social and actually got out of the house I might be a little more worried of her influence, but my fear of going out and socialising (amongst many of me) is much stronger than her friskiness.

I respect boundaries, of my own and of others. The two people in my life who are not my family are my best friend and my social worker. My best friend is now married and I consider our relationship to be mostly platonic (he's the only one who's ever complimented me and some harmless flirting which I probably enjoy far too much). My social worker is just that, he's a professional there to help me get help and grow along side my therapy. Both are male, both are non-sexual relationships.

This part of me is not respecting of either my boundaries or theirs. She couldn't care less about my best friend being married, or that my social worker is a mental health professional, and although she much prefers my friend, she keeps taunting me with the idea of making a move (to say the least). To my social worker, the situation is unlikely, he's a professional and I only see him in a professional setting, when I do see him, I think that I have so much on my (all of our) mind that again her feelings would be pushed aside and not acted upon. If the worst came to the worst, which I very much doubt, I could always get a new social worker.

My best friend however, I may be visiting/staying with for a few days in the near future. He makes me feel so at ease and comfortable it's easier for her to come forward and lead the situation. I am afraid of upsetting him (and his wife) and driving the only friend I have away because she has other ideas. Also she is prominently displaying her sexual ideas (I'm sure this isn't the right word) to me. How can I get her to stop/ understand that she mustn't cross the boundaries I set her. God I feel like her parent! She's 19 years old and quite rebellious.

I don't have a therapist yet, my Mum isn't entirely comfortable with it all - she's supportive but doesn't know what to say - so I don't really talk to her about it, my friend knows a lot about my PTSD but I haven't told him about this yet and my social worker doesn't know yet as I'm waiting on a diagnosis from my psychiatrist. So I really have no one to ask yet.

Thanks
AJ
xx

As I posted this here and on the DID forum and that has responses, here's the link ( dissociative-identity/topic110015.html ) . Though if you want you're more than welcome to post here.