Depression, Anxiety, Apathy, No Gratitude or Empathay

I believe I am not the same as normal, straight or real people. Since childhood I have been an entitled, selfish, hateful person with little or no regard for people or authority. The law only holds value when I can twist it to my advantage. I have self medicated since 1988. I will lie, cheat, manipulate to get what I want. I am extremely negative, have depression, anxiety, apathy a touch of ocd and PTSD from prison. I can be extremely obsessive. I have extreme anger and fury which can go from depression to rage in a nanosecond, but never violent. I am an addict, not substances although I self medicate, addicted to computers/internet. Was given a computer when I was 12 and have been addicted since. I was abusively punished as a child. Smacked in the face, beat with belt, fly swatter, hot wheel track till they figured out whipping didn't work. Then for punishment I was grounded. I was punished not without legitimate reason, but the punishment was abusive. My child, who has a BA in Psychology, thinks I am a psychopath and wants me to get a my brain scanned. I am a terrible father and do not care. My child's mother died in 2009 from aneurysm, we were not married or together. I despise humans and would love to see most of them eradicated. I am not racist, all humans are equally worthless to me, including myself. Humans for ######6 stupid. I am a total piece of trash and no genies but Jesus Christ the majority of the people in the world have the IQ of a rock! I have no care as to what is happening to others as long as it does not affect me. Currently unemployed with no desire to work, longest ever held a job was 5 years. I get fired often. Never been married and have no desire for a wife. Just sex. I am terrible as a relationship partner but a great lover. I love animals and would like to kill and torture animal abusers and those whom preform test on animals. Yet ###$ people, I care not for what happens to them. I enjoy when bad things happen to people. Like the idiots that imploded on the sub to the titanic. HA HA. Hope rich people going to space blow up next. The human race SHOULD NOT spread its filth of a species across the universe. It is my hope humans go extinct on earth along with the other 99.9% of things that have ever lived here. Wish every baby boomer would hurry up and die. I am tired of the greatest generation of worthless assholes ######6 up the world. Anyhow, I am sure I need couch time and prescription drugs. But I will never do that as I feel it is gay and will not work. I am more interested in your thoughts...