Jaded and cynical

I am a 20 years old NEET with no motivation to change anything about it.

For the longest time I was told to 'grow up', that things like passion, enthusiasm and enjoyment are childish and I need to grow out of these things. So now that I'm an adult, I did grow out of them.
However, it sucks. It stripped me of all hope and motivation. And the only way I'm able to feel happiness is through self harm.
Is this what being an adult is about?

Does growing up and becoming an adult mean growing jaded and cynical?

Jaded Sapphire managed it.

In my experience one becomes a child, then finishes puberty, then gets everything pre-puberty back, and does not become an adult. See the elder scrolls. This is likened to having a greater soul rather than a grand soul.

Adequate Redwood should be a porn star name, as well as Girthy Sequoia.

I don't understand your reply. Are you sure you were sober when writing that? I didn't get anything pre-puberty back.

And what's that with the elder scrolls metaphor. I played the crap out of the games and I don't get it. Could you elaborate, please?

May have been the ativan and melatonin. I won't get back to you on this.

ArchCannon wrote:Could you elaborate, please?

Are you being esoteric?

Well yes, I am. Can't see the picture tho.

I have a black greater soul. Being esoteric, too.

ArchCannon wrote:Can't see the picture tho.

ArchCannon wrote:I played the crap out of the games and I don't get it. Could you elaborate, please?

Have you ever noticed that world of warcraft guy from south park and the ebony warrior are exactly the same?