Such a long time!..

Since the age of 12 I have suffered from bad depressions,
now I´m 26 years old.
These depressions get more and more unbearable.
I don´t feel enough able to live.
I always have to interrupt my education and to stop my actual job.
I very often had been at the hospital but that doesn´t help enough for a longer period.
I have agonizing suicide thoughts and need to fight with myself to stay alive. I feel I haven´t much energy left and I´m so tired and weak! I don´t want any longer to live my life as miserable as this, but I have to. How much longer should I stand that? And how?

Hey Colour.

I know how hard it is to deal with depression on a daily basis.
Have you ever sought out treatment for your depression, do you know the cause of it? etc?

For me treatment was a good thing, it helped me deal with alot of it, therapy, medication and light thearpy for my SAD my depression didn't hit hard until I was 16.. and i'm 25 now.

Hang in there.

it'll be alright, just keep seeking out help:)

i too have bad depression, and with therapy, new friends, and medication, i can live happily, but not numbly, anywho, just keep getting some help, it's help not hurt ain't it? lol:)

Thank you both very much for your reply.
I have taken medicine for years up to now. Medicine helps me, but not enough.
I´m just looking for the right therapist. Perhaps a therapy could help me more..

perhaps, u know i count some of the replys from this site as therapy somtimes:) also it can come from anyone, friends, co workers, whoevers nice to ya! just ask for some help:)

Therapy I think could help you considering you have been suffering from this for so long, and you don't know what to do anymore, because you are having so much trouble coping.

Hang in there.... and good luck in your search for someone to talk to.

Thank you all very much!
I have found a very good therapist now!
And I don´t need to pay for this therapy,
because the health insurance scheme does it.
Wish you all the best! colour

thats awesome colour!!!!!!!, really great! i love seeing my therapist, it's so wonderful to talk about eveyrhting and then move on and away from it, i've never had that, too much repressed lol, well, good job and good luck!!!!