by sincefour » Wed Jan 04, 2006 10:03 pm
patm3300,
I understand your frustration. Once I figured out something was not right with me (25 years ago), I started a long path to try and "fix it". I never envisioned taking prescribed drugs then. Today I take 7 regularly (two for mood) and 1 occasionly.
I started with therapy, and new agey type stuff such as: excercise, diet, chiro, shiatsu, meditation, yoga, religions, rolfing, etc. This lasted for about 6 years, and I would often go some time w/o troubles, but I would always find may back to deep depressions, cutting, and PTSD fits.
I gave up pretty much most of it except diet, mild excercise and chiro for about the next 17 years. I had less cutting (became more socially ept), same depression, and slowly receding levels of PTSD.
Then, came the diagnosis six years ago - bipolar. I started taking Lithium and that made things much better and more consistent. Although it dulled my thinking. I also got into therapy again.
During the past two years I also tried six anti D's and Depakote for my moods and they all failed vs. the Lithium. Then, I started Lamictal about 12 days ago, and every day so far I feel normal. No mania, no depression, just an easygoing feeling and lots of concentration. Wow. I'm trying to not get too caught up in excitement.
At this point I can only conclude that for me, the only things that have proven to be useful is therapy and prescribed drugs.
Good luck with your path,
w