by moramind » Mon Dec 05, 2005 4:44 am
hahaha, awesome! yeah, somthing about those drugs, they zap your sexual drive, it's wierd, but um yeah, the depression got tons better, my appetite wasn't too badly affected, and yeah, i wnat to get back on it realllly bad, i should have never thougth i could make it without it, um yeah, i'll write again when i'm back in the saddle again, oh, and i kinda felt like i lost a spark that i used to have, but that could have just been me recovering from evrythign that had happened with psychosis and all, funny? you said it made you see lights? haha, i saw/see them naturally! crazy huh? well as well as other things, ###$ man, i work retail, and i always am thinking that i see people outta the corner of my eye, it's freaking me out a little, but nothing i can't deal with i know it's all not real, just a hallucenation, just what gets to me the most is, the other day, before work, i had soem dreams before i woke up to get ready and i kept waking up, but like 2 hours late, adn then when i finally woke up, it took me til i hurt myself by doing somthing clumsy like always! to realize that that wasn't a dream, pretty ###$ up when you're so paranoid that you think that reality is a dram, and maybe nothings real, ###$, yeha i know, i'm seeing my therapist this tues!!!! ###$ yes! i need it!!! o dear, sorry, that was so long, but i feel better now that i have that all out:) thanks:) i guess:)
ps, hey, i'm gonna start a thread for whatever oen is taking, you have inspired me, oh, and i've reqad abotu some bad reactions to prozac, so if anybody posts that, don't freak ok, some drugs work for some, but not others, seems to be workign for you
somtimes, it's like i want to touch these lights, and give into them become them, just a flash for a moment~in this world