Why do I feel like sh@t, allll the time?!

I seriously don't understand what's wrong with me. I've had a rough life, yeah, but I've always managed to put a smile on and tell myself there will be better days, that there's hope. I had sooo much self control, and my anger and saddness was in check 100%. Everything was good. But now, I feel myself just hating everything, even myself. Nothing makes me happy, nothing makes me feel hopeful. I dunno how to fix this, cause idunno what changed it. I just feel so miserable all the time, and it's much more than depression.. i just feel so #######5 and useless. I always have this yucky feeling in my stomach and chest, like guilt and hurt and paranoia. It never goes away, and a few times this past week, I've woken up in the morning feeling completely sick to my stomach. I'm so unhappy, it's making me sick to my stomach. I don't understand... how could I possibly feel sooo horrible and not have a single clue as to why?! Someone please help me understand this, I wanna feel better again.. I wanna be back to normal. This constant #######5 feeling needs to go away!

I know how you feel I wad just sitting here having the exact thoughts I font feel good at all can't even sleep I don't know what's causing it. My doctor days its not my fault that brain just has something going on. I don't know what to do it think. I have days that are ok and others well I think you know..I try so hard to think happy and do things I enjoy it'd mot helping anymore I think I need more help. I do believe its not our fault we just have to find what helps us

THose rough days are horrible. I tell myself everything I'm doing is going nowhere. It used to get to me, I used to waste the whole day moping and thinking about killing myself. Now that I've realized my situation and trying to fix that situation, I just immediately think to myself, haha, one of these days, I then go do something that occupies my time keeping my content, or study languages. My bad days aren't so bad anymore, I know you've heard it 1000 times but occupy your time! Your mind left alone can do aweful things to itself and we don't want that to happen now do we.

Now I am very concision about your horrible. I know you've heard it 100times but occupy your time.
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self hypnosis for stage fear

I thing i feel better .but i don not know the how can i recover the pain face in my face . now i want to
self hypnosis for stage fear . please help me for that .