Fame Isn't Sh*t

Fame means nothing.

I just spoke to a congressman today, and am going to be featured on ABC News as one of those 'success stories'.

But I'm not a success.

I'm a subscriber to self-injury.

Manic Depressant with suicidal tendencies.

I've tried so hard to leave my past. I can't. It's like an old friend told me in the begining, 'you're a F**king projects kid and you always will be'....

I've got so many people counting on me... So much to lose...

And nothing to gain, it seems.

Help.

Algiers,

Sometimes the best response is to step back and relax for a bit. I don't mean the crap everyone calls relaxing, I mean really stepping away from things. Take a weekend off... from EVERYTHING.

When I get overwhelmed I head to a little town called Forks, WA. It is a small town close to a lot of beautiful places, but most importantly for me my Cell Phone doesn't work there so I can't be bothered. I don't give anyone the hotel where I'm staying (if I'm not camping) and the only way for them to reach me is if I call them first.

Try it if you're getting overwhelmed. Find a tiny little town where nobody knows you, if you're too well known then do your best to disguise yourself and vanish into the little town for a weekend.

Wish I could offer more than these ideas and some support.

It's not that easy. I don't have the luxury of leaving.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just in a downer bi-polar episode. I just hate the feeling of not being able to escape the stress.

Nobody was there for me in the begining. Nothing but empty promises.

I did it for the attention. I wanted to be treated like somebody important.

There is still nobody around. Nothing but pseudo-friends after a few bucks.

I don't want to live like this.

Well for what it's worth I don't even know who you are and I'm here to listen. There are many others on here that will do the same without caring who you are - if you'll give them a chance.

As for not having the luxury... taking a break isn't a luxury it's a necessity.

yeah, i'll listen, maybe one of your parents, or aunts or uncles can take you away for a weekend, and just be sort of alone.

I don't have a family and the people in my life couldn't be bothered.

I appreciate anybody willing to talk.

My yahoo messenger is: manicfilmluvguy