my boyfriend can't handle my depression. is he careless?

hello dear forum angels
I've been reading the messages here when I was depressed and they helped me a lot.
I was reading them when I was getting better, and it also helped me a lot.

now I have a question I'm asking myself day & night:

I met him in april, we were traveling, I was happy and shining. we fell in love quickly and everything looked so perfect. we decided to get married.
I felt I'm so happy I really don't need these medicines anymore (seroxat), so I stopped taking them.
obviously, the episode came. it became worse and worse, until...
now he sent me to my friends, to my family, to doctors, he said he can't give me the help I need.
but,
also pointed it's really my fault and I'm acting silly with this depression I'm making up.
now I'm a little after. not completely well, but much better.
I was complaining to his ears that he doesn't love me, for he wasn't there for me when I really needed support, and he answered he does love me a lot, but he will never be able to support my depression, because he doesn't understand this, and it looks childish to him.

did it happen to anyone here?
what did you do?
what do you think?
after all, it is hard to be around someone with depression.
does it mean he doesn't really love me?
it's just
I love him, but I don't want to cry for his attention...

I think it's hard for someone to understand what it's like to have depression when they've never suffered it themselves, that goes for anything else whether it's anxiety, schizophrenia etc.

Have you ever gotten him to read anything on depression?
I made my bf read a bit of it so he would understand it better...


It is insensitive for him to tell you that you are making the depression up, you were on medications for that, however I think just because you feel good doesn't mean you stop taking them. *hugs*

I think he does love you, I think it's just frustration, perhaps he doesn't know what to do to help you...?

I feel so lonely since then.
I feel like he deserted me in my hardest time.
it feels like the cut is already so deep...
I don't know if I can trust him again.
I feel so hurt.

but just 2 months ago he was the love of my life!

could it all be from the depression now?
I feel I'm lying to myself when I continue this relationship as if everything's getting better now.
I don't feel the same about us anymore, but I don't want to make any decesions I'll regret afterwards.
Is it my depression making me feel this way?
when can I trust my own feelings again? (now it became philosophical even...)

sounds like you should've stayed on your meds, i knwo that i should have, just get back on them, and try to get him to understand that alot of people have depression, and that you just didn't make it up ok?