I can't breath i am so ugly

i tried to improve my appearance, but now i feel too tired of even trying
nothing changes,
i just get uglier and uglier every year
what should I do?
litrally what should I do?

it's not self esteem issue.I am serious. i am being objective so plz don't say like
'no don't think that way'
that only hurts me

what should I do? just ppl's shocked reaction at my abnormal appearance
make me depressed

i am too sad, help. i took some depression pills but it does not fix my appearance
so fundamentally nothing is solved

i am afraid of getting surgery
ppl think i am a monster.
I am too sad...

my dreams are related to appearance issue EVERYDAY
it's whether me getting terrified to look at myself, or other ppl being terrified.

i don't know what to do...

why do ppl blame me , laugh at me, pity me for not looking good?
i am sick of that.

help. i am sad.

No one is perfect. Some people have scars, some have lost their hair due to cancer, some are mentally and physically handicapped, some are overweight or underweight & some are disfigured, etc. Everyone is different and is their own person. It doesn't matter what a person looks like, it's whats on the inside that counts. True family and friends will see what kind of a person you are and not judge you by your appearance.