lack of memories

I am very concerned about my lack of memories while growing up. I do have some memories but they are seriously lacking in detail. I have thought maybe I was blocking something but even some stuff that had happened 4-5 years ago I have trouble remembering clearly. I remember feelings more than events & the majority of events I do remember are usually major things that happened~usually negative things.
I see young kids-maybe 12-13 and they seem so aware of their world and what it going on & I try and think back to when I was that age & I was so childish, all over the place mentally and just out of it~I was not concerned or really aware of what was going on outside my little world.
I am diagnosed with depression, ADHD, general anxiety disorder & HistrionicPD and am on wellbutrin and klonopin but have only been on these meds for the past year.
I am concerned about this b/c I dont see this as being normal & it is causing me alot of anger & frustration. I don't know if this is a disorder in itself or a symptom of a disorder but if anyone has any insight~whether first hand or not~it would be greatly appreciated!
TIA

Hi,

I think the stuff that you are describing happens in depression. I notice it in me. The outside world doesn't evoke the same emotional "punch" anymore. Depression blots out feelings, their intensity. It also makes your senses duller (true-in more severe depression) too.

Also, if you had severe depression growing up, your memory is going to not be that great during the depressed times. Kind of like the kid who takes crappy notes in class.

I can't remember what I did yesterday, or three weeks ago, unless I really think hard.

One thing, keep a journal. It will help. And take pictures to go with it if possible. Even stupid ones, like outside of where you lived, etc. small things you'd forget.