what depression do i have?

Wow you sure like psych text books. Psych text books don't tell you everything, sometime life experience can be more invaluable

Well bettyboop, unlike you with your *wonderful family* I had no one. Books where the only thing I had to escape.
And yes I have relied on them as they helped me, so I try to suggest some with the thought they might help others who have no one to talk too. If they don't want to read them they don't have to.

But of course you had plenty of *lovely* family too speak too right??

That's why your are talking to complete STRANGERS on a psych forum.

Oh, I forgot you are sooo kind you don't want to "worry them"

Don't ridicule me because all I have is books.

We don't all have wonderful, loving, concerned, comforting, involved family like you have.

As for life experience, you know nothing, a ballet dancer.
You have nearly starved yourself to death and you are bi polar, lucky you that you have a great family.

Please don't fight here, guys.

Greatexpectations wrote:

Wow you sure like psych text books. Psych text books don't tell you everything, sometime life experience can be more invaluable

Well bettyboop, unlike you with your *wonderful family* I had no one. Books where the only thing I had to escape.
And yes I have relied on them as they helped me, so I try to suggest some with the thought they might help others who have no one to talk too. If they don't want to read them they don't have to.

But of course you had plenty of *lovely* family too speak too right??

That's why your are talking to complete STRANGERS on a psych forum.

Oh, I forgot you are sooo kind you don't want to "worry them"

Don't ridicule me because all I have is books.

We don't all have wonderful, loving, concerned, comforting, involved family like you have.

As for life experience, you know nothing, a ballet dancer.
You have nearly starved yourself to death and you are bi polar, lucky you that you have a great family.

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I wantnt ridiculing you. Not at all.
I tell my family I'm on here. I like it here because you guys suffer the same stresses and I think even though my family do their best you guys understand a bit more.

Either way please don't be rude there is no need.
I am sorry if my post sounded rude. I was simply saying that I do do think book are good buttheydo not tell the whole story. That life experience can teach you a lot of stuff to.
I think you know what I am trying to say but just want to start a fight.

I do not appreciate you ridiculing my illness. It s real just as real as yours.

I am really sorry that you haven't had a nice family and that you can't except that I have a nice one. I do feel for you because I know I would be dead by now if my family hadn't been there for me. So I know how lucky I am.


I think you will be surprised at how much life experience I have: I was a ballet dancer being told that being skinny was the only way to get a job. So I did, Igot very ill. I was taken to intensive care as I was literally drying. Then to a eating diorder MH unit where I stayed inpatient for 6 months. I was then placed in mental health supported housing for 2 year. During that time I had a big depressiong that ended up with me being sectioned for a month. Went back to the supported housing. Then after being stabilised on meds I worked my way back into society and work (took another year). I got a job as a mental health support worker and worked with all different kind of mental ill people that needed help in their homes. I did a degree in medical science and I now work in a&e and deal with the mental ill daily. Mostly people who are in crisis and suicidal. Books I read during my medical science degree helped me to understand basics about illness and how to help people but I definitely learnt he most form actually being there and experiencing my own mental illness and now by experiencing others who are mentally ill.
6 months ago I had a manic episode that I can't remember much about but I know that I did some very dangerous things. I was then diagnosed bipolar. And since bipolar is thought to be a chemical imbalance, all the love and good upbringing in the world would prob not have stopped me becoming mentally ill. My psych still say that it was dueto my mood disorder that caused my ED to persist, as I used the ED to stabilise my moods.


Book knowledge is not wrong (well there are some iffy psych books out the but that a different debate) and I am glad that they helped you to understand and deal with your illness but I believe that the experiences you live are what teach you the most.

Please don't assume that because you have read a couple of my post that you know my story. I never assumed to know your story.
I have worked so hard and it took me years till I could work again so I'm pretty upset that you think my experience is a joke.

Sorry for my previous post, I suppose the reference to books did touch a nerve. Suddenly I felt sorry for myself. I found it triggering.
I have read a lot of books, all types.
My mother was a ignoring malignant narcissist, the only thing I had was books. It didn't irritate her too much as it was quiet. I had a imaginary friend too.
I have read your previous posts now and can see you have struggled with bi polar. In jobs like modelling, ballet dancing and similar, the pressure to be thin is huge.
You are a strong person to have coped with so much you have fought and worked hard, and got your degree.
I do not think all mental illness is due to bad family's, somethings are genetic, maybe due to a chemical imbalance.
I glad your family is supportive.
I was out of order. Bettyboop, I hope you can accept my apology.

I accept your apology.

I hope you are receiving support from professionals. They cannot offer you love but they can provide care.
I'm sorry you had the up bringing you had. I hope that you can see positivity in the future though and see that what happened in your past does not need to effect your future.

Xx

Hey, I'm glad you guys made up!

Hud_rut, how are you doing, are you ok?