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hello allll

i am just wrighting this to see waht you think i should do i am started to feel depressed or more then i normal do i never thought that i was depressed but for the last few weeks i have been feeling left out alone and got nothing to look forward to,last night i thought should i just killmy self who word carei never do anything anymore. i just sleep and play on my pc and i hate my self to bits but i always use to think like this in school not that bad of thinking of killing myself but more on the lines of i am a usless piece of crap and i keep going this bad feelings of my dad couse all i do is sit at my pc and never help but when i ask if he needs help he says no and it makes me sadder that he dont want my help 8(

sorry for my english

you should perhaps talk to a doctor or someone like that to get a professional opinion on the matter. maybe it's just a short term bad mood that will pass within the next day or so but there's a chance it could be more so get it checked before it gets hard to treat or worse.

thanks for the post

i would talk to a docter but i dont like speaking to people and from what i have read,this feeling of sadness loneness and the thought of killing your self will never go away even if you do seek help so what is the point ?

what makes you think that by talking w/ someone, your depression will never go away? And by talking w/ someone....do you mean just talking in general...like on forums such as this or your friends....or do you mean counselors too? I can't speak for your experience, obviously. But I have dealt w/ depression...suicide....made attempts on my life....used to cut my wrists w/ razors and burn myself w/ cigg. I"ve been through much counseling.....I no longer deal w/ this. And the here and there times if I do have things to work through....I'm now MUCH better prepared in how to handle negative things in my life. Face it....life will throw things your way...for example...death of a loved one or close friend....but the counseling I've been through...taught me lots....gave me hope.....helped me understand and deal w/ my depression. There is help out there...in many forms. but yeah, it does take work on your part! In my opinion....it takes more then just talking even w/ a counselor.....just chatting on and on about things is not how you change......listen to the advice of a professional.....see what their take is on why you are even feeling as you are....learn about yourself and be open to trying new things to change yourself towards the more positive....learn what is behind all the negative you are dealing w/ and then learn how to handle all that. It truly can be done. But again...it takes more then just talking out things....you have to be willing to try and accept change!