I WANNA DIE CAN ANYONE HELP

moramind wrote:nice james dean quote:)

thank you!! he's one of my heros. I love those guys that would be old, but instead they died young. Such as john lennon (wouldn't be TOO old), james dean, bob marley (not sure if he'd actually be old), and a lot of others. But anyway--that's off subject.

For the past week I have saying ###$ it all and I just have been feeling so ###$ up I wrote down my Sucidie note and almost did but before I was going to do it I prayed and it kept me from killing myself. Why am I so ###$, why do I have to keep feeling like this? I just want it to end god can's somebody end this pain and suffering. I just wanna put a gun to my barin and cock it and say die Jack. I just dont wanan live like this anymore, it's hard as ###$ going to work feeling like this, and I keep hiding it by a corupt smile, and false happiness.

Anonymous wrote:For the past week I have saying ###$ it all and I just have been feeling so ###$ up I wrote down my Sucidie note and almost did but before I was going to do it I prayed and it kept me from killing myself. Why am I so ###$, why do I have to keep feeling like this? I just want it to end god can's somebody end this pain and suffering. I just wanna put a gun to my barin and cock it and say die Jack. I just dont wanan live like this anymore, it's hard as ###$ going to work feeling like this, and I keep hiding it by a corupt smile, and false happiness.

Jack, you're miserable. You'll probably feel better later, but as we know it won't last. Please, PLEASE talk to a doctor or counselor. Get some help. You have absolutely NOTHING to lose, if you go to the doctor. You were considering killing yourself, and how could going to the doctor be worse than that?? PLease get help!!

I wanna get help but am to scared guss I am really a ######6 coward. I just don't feel like living at this point, if I were to find a gun I will surely kill myself, I dont feel like living with a fake happiness anymore, or a corput ass smile. Sorry I let everyone down, sorry to everyone that I am a ######6 loser.

well, if you don't like to be a coward, or whatever, i'm not saying you are, but just that if you don't like it, change it, you have the power to change your mind, and make decisions for yourself

Anonymous wrote:I wanna get help but am to scared guss I am really a ######6 coward. I just don't feel like living at this point, if I were to find a gun I will surely kill myself, I dont feel like living with a fake happiness anymore, or a corput ass smile. Sorry I let everyone down, sorry to everyone that I am a ######6 loser.

Jack, what do you have to lose? I know it's scary, but it has to be scary to know that at any moment you could lose it and kill yourself. Getting help can't be as scary as that! All you have to do is go to a doctor and ask them about helping you get yourself straightened out. I doubt that you'd have to go to the hospital or anything scary like that. They'll most likely just talk to you, like a doctor normally does, and maybe prescribe some medicine for you. I've never been to a psychiatrist, but I've heard from a few people what their experiences were like. If it's this bad that you're thinking about dying, how can getting help make it any worse. The only thing it could possibly do would be to make thigns better. Don't be scared. There's no need for you to be scared. But this is not going to get any better unless you ask for help.

What are you scared of? Maybe if you talked that out, you could overcome it. You can private message me or post it here, but I want to know what you're afraid of.

love and hugs,
element

I am afraid cause I am a very shy person and I tried venting with words but quickly shut up cause of how stupid I sounded. I am afraid cause of what ppl might think, seeing how I have been harrassed, threatend, gay bashed, and even had death threats. I am not gay, and all that $#%^ that happend has scared me and made me so shy that I am afraid to talk to ppl and right now I feel godamn nothing like if I were to slit my throat I would not feel it, I am not drugged or anything just so clouded, so depresed, and so ###$ up that I fell as if I am leading a false hope, false happiness, and a corupt ass smile. LOL. I I must have sounded so stupid saying all that gay ass $#%^. LOL

Hey buddy!

James here! People DO care for ya!! Just know so many will hurt if u do kill urself. I luv ya!!

James

Anonymous wrote:I am afraid cause I am a very shy person and I tried venting with words but quickly shut up cause of how stupid I sounded. I am afraid cause of what ppl might think, seeing how I have been harrassed, threatend, gay bashed, and even had death threats. I am not gay, and all that $#%^ that happend has scared me and made me so shy that I am afraid to talk to ppl and right now I feel godamn nothing like if I were to slit my throat I would not feel it, I am not drugged or anything just so clouded, so depresed, and so ###$ up that I fell as if I am leading a false hope, false happiness, and a corupt ass smile. LOL. I I must have sounded so stupid saying all that gay ass $#%^. LOL

I know how it feels to be shy. I'm shy too. Sometimes I really shy, and I can hardly talk at all.

But no one is going to think you sound stupid!! Doctors have talked to ALL KINDS of people! They aren't going to think "wow this guy sounds stupid". They just won't.

I know that sometimes after venting you feel stupid, or at laest I know I do. But there is nothing stupid about it. NO one is going to judge you for what you say to a doctor. All they're going to do is try to help you. You said you've been to the doctor about this sort of thing before, right? How did it go?

And this doctor that you'd be talking to--you'd have no need to impress them. Don't worry about what they think. If they think you're stupid (which I really couldn't see happening), then find someone else.

Are you afraid of what you're friends will think or just of what the doctor will think? What are you worried about? NOne of your friends need to or have to know. You can talk about it to whoever you want to talk to about it, but you don't have to talk about it to anyone.

Please just try to get help. It is the only way that this situation will get better. You've been struggling for a long time, and you don't deserve to struggle with this anymore. And killing yourself would be a really horrible decision to make. It doesn't really solve anythign. All it does is make life for everyone else worse than it was before. And then your life isn't just ruined but it's over for good. You'll miss out on so many thigs. Going to a doctor and risking sounding stupid (not that you'd sound stupid anyway) can't possibly be that bad. Please get help. As soon as you possibly can. You'll be glad that you did. Seriously, if your life is this bad, how could going to the doctor make it worse?

Love and hugs and lots of support,
Element

Hi everyone, how are things going?