I WANNA DIE CAN ANYONE HELP

Hey everyone here it is a new day and I am still depresed and still trying to fight the urges of killing myself. Where are all these feelings hiding? Dancing in and out of mind burning all that I long for and feeding on me till my decline. Am I blind for dearching my bleeding soulr? So to all these nameless feelings I can't deal with in my life, to all these greddy people trying to fed on what's mine you have to feed your hunger and stop ######6 with my head, and leave me the ###$ alone. I have never ever felt this depresed before, I have called a Sucidie prevention hotline, talked to a doctor, and talked to a psycho threapest, and nothing, nothing has heloped me. I stuck with it for 2 even 3 weeks but talking to them only made me feel even more depressed and stupid. Although I know how stupid that was saying that. I just want everyone to that I love you all and wanna thank everyone from the botom of my heart for all the help and support. I just feel as if I have leet everyone down which is everyone here, and myself. I just wanna take some pills and never wake up. I am going to bed now maybe that will help who know. Night everyone, God bless, and much love



alot of this is quite poetic, we all feel as though we want to die somedays, many in fact, but what i think we should really focus on is, that we didn't do it, we are still here, springs coming, and there is so much beauty in the world unfolding, just look for the light, it's their.

You need to tell doctors that what ever doesn’t work is not working, and keep telling them that until you find something working.

You know what the problem is I don’t know why things didn’t work for you. Thus I don’t know how to help you – Tell me what you tried, & what went wrong.

You know what seems wrong, you ask for help but then you don’t take it. There is one thing that the key word HELP you meaning most of the work you must do your self; no one can do it for you. (maybe I am wrong What did you do/try ?)

Truly what kind of help do you want? What do you expect?

Actually I disagree w/ you. I USED to feel, most days, that I wanted to die. And then something would pull me back from that. I USED to be on that rollercoaster of emotions.

Now I've come far enough in changing things for myself and making things better that I'm EMBRACING life and truly living it....not just exisiting in it from one day to the next. And now when something happens in my day that makes me angry or stresses me out.....I no longer feel that I want to die in order to escape it. Now I'm more equipped w/ the tools to handle it just for what it is and it only affects me emotionally for how it should....it no longer becomes all encompassing and making me feel that I hate my life.

Hey everyone, I am back with my psych and I am staying with this lady a quite a while, talking to her has helped a lil, but reading everyone's post here as helped a lil as well, thanks so much everyone. I am on the road to recovery. LOL. Anyway how is every one doing today?

May I ask what happens in your sessions? Not what you talk about specifically ...but how it's run? Does your therapist just have you talk for the whole hour and nods her head from time to time...that sort of thing....you do all the talking and she does all the listening?

I caution you w/ that style of counseling persay that's the case. You DO need to have some sessions where you are doing much of the talking because after all she needs your background and insight into the reason you are there. But after a time...she should be giving you feedback....asking specific questions based on what you share w/ her or how you answer the question before.......at somepoint I would expect her to give you her take on what you are dealing w/ in her opinion and let you know what the plan is for you to start working through it......teaching you about why it's a problem for you......taking you through each specific problem and getting to the root of why it might be so troublesome for you.....then beyond that point teaching you things you can do on your own so that when things of the like come up for you in the future you will then be equipped w/ life skills in coping better.....learning what it means to "deal w/ something" effectively so that things don't build up and learn things you can do on your own so that little things don't become bigger for you then they really should have ever been in the first place.

that make sense? Every therapist has their own style. THere is more then one way to counsel someone too. But I PERSONALLY find that when a counselor ONLY has one come in once a week or so and do nothing more then what amounts to venting....you won't see a change in your situation. Think about it....isn't that the same as one can do on a site such as this or w/ a buddy for free? And things never get better the ndo they.......side from the fact that you know you have people that care!

Hi everyone I slipped on a banana peel, tripped over the couch, and fell out the window. LOL ROFL. I feel so much happier, but yet I also feel so much more depresed, but oh well, and who cares. Anyway enough of my stupidity how is everone doing? Well I am going to bed, night, and God bless.

I am so ashamed of myself, I dont belong here, I am just a ######6 loser low life asshole, I am so afraid of the guilt and I dont belong here, i am not well. If this helps anyone on how I feel, my depression is so bad that it hurts, I am hurting so badly right now, I am not sure how much longer I am going to hold on, if I kill myself, I want everyone to rejoice. I am off to work.

Do me a favor.......read this entire thread ....or at the very least...read each of your postings in this thread from the very first to this very last one........don't you get how back and forth from one extreme to the next your mood swings are? What happened to counseling? Print out this thread for your counselor and take it to your next session.......................

This thread appears to be feeding Jack what he wants most, which is attention. Not the right type of attention though. He has not got help, you cant call what he is doing as helping himself at all. Has anyone realised yet that this thread is the same over and over again. This particular one is being followed by so many. It actually shows no respect for anyone else on this site, who really want help. I feel it is disrespectful to people who really suffer depression, I have written previous posts on here early. My opinion to Jack (& I have a right to voice my opion) is perhaps he should check out the "compulsive lying forum" it may be of interest to him. If he suffers from depression, well I believe he suffers from more then just this. In my opinion this particular thread will go on for years unless it is locked-blocked what ever it is the moderaters call it. Perhaps this thread should be discussed between them, other people on this site need to be shown respect to and I believe what is going on here is not fair for other people who come here to try to achieve something to help them, or to discuss with people to try different things. There is nothing positive going on here at all. My opinion is this attention taken on someone who clearly isnt doing anything for themselves, takes attention away from other people with depression who need this and need this site and people who are willing to do anything to get better, people who really want to live but battle with this, who really need to talk to people here. Please pull the pin on this thread, it is going beyond anything I have seen going in this site or others. As a person who is entitled to view and post I am taking great offence to the matters of Jack! I find it extremely disrepectful, now at this point it has gone to, for people who need help and seek help or comfort here. Please I am very genuine with my concerns here. please moderators or administrator I feel this thread needs to be investigated and really looked into closely here.

I will forward your comments to our site administrator. I agree the thread is going on and is quite repetative. However I disagree that it takes away support from others here. No one has to carry on a discussion in this thread. Jack needs support too. Not everyone can see their situation clearly and not everyone gets help as easily as others.