TOO DEPRESSED!

hey, I am really depressed and desperately wanted to cry but I don't want to. Because tears couldn't help. Here my problem is, I stopped liking Mike, my date guy. For that reason, I was not really happy when I'm with him. It didn't felt so right for me be happy to be with him. But fortunately, we yet weren't in a relationship. Because I easily get depressed for nothing or sometimes reasons. I told him the truth. Then I got home and showed my parents the picture of me and Mike. Suddenly, my parents freaked out and thought it is a bad picture because my arms were wrapped around Mike's body in this picture, which isn't a bad picture but they realized it is! They almost ruined this picture. Then I was out of control and hit them badly. I went into my room and slammed my door quickly. I almost cried but I was so mad and depressed simultaneously. I questioned myself, "Why am I having lots of ######6 hard times? Why being me? I wish I shouldn't be here on this earth But I know I shouldn't have said." Lots of things make worst and make me more sad. That's why I suffer from depression and anxiety... I have some crap illnesss. Nobody wants to talk to me.. Nobody could understand.. Nobody could be there for me... I know I am not alone but whooo??? Except the God. Then I decided to get on aim. I imed one of my friends, Jordan. But she has a hard time.. I now feel so.......................... you know. ........ that is just frustrating..so apathetic... my life is a full of crap but my life is just unfair. I always pretend to be happy for everyone.. But I cannot make myself be happy because I am being a teenager.. I HATE BEING A TEENAGER .. Being a teenager is so bitchy and ###$ up.

Sorry for swearing bad words..

But sorry, I just am so depressed and negatived.

SIGH!

I'm sorry that you're having a hard time!!!

If you want to talk, I'll be glad to listen. I can also add you to my prayer list.

I Hope you're feeling better right now!!

~element