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hi, I am scared to tell you because you'd think that sounds totally stupid or else.. But I have to tell.

Anyways, my name is nina.. I'm 15 years old. I suffer lots from depression and anxiety disorder. I have a professional therapist and a school counselor but it doesn't help me. I still am unhappy with lots of things what I do. But I want to be happy even though it doesn't feel right for me be happy. All I could do is I want to adjust a new life and erase my old life. Then I could be more happy than before now. You know, I just don't care about anything at the moment and the guy who I date- I never fall for him but a LITTLE feeling for him. I know he is not the one for me because I've known him for many years. I never find him so attractive and lots of things I like. But we have some common. I told him the truth and my life. He said he does understand but I don't believe him whether he does understand. I hate hearing this phrase, "I understand... blah." That just makes me not be happy because obviously, they don't understand. That wasted of my time telling them. I keep saying myself in my mind, "Why did I want to tell them besides they just nod when they listen to me or make me feel better instead of something else." I feel like I am a worthless-life person. I don't know.. But I know I have a dream and go through it patiently..Also, I want to make a dream come true and win a success. It will take me ages...... ahh.

sigh.
my life is just.. like.. a hell.
But I cannot say that. oh well, too late to say that, uh?
I also have lots of problems with my family. That is so frustrated..and the whole things overwhelm my pressure and life.. etc.

Anyways, thanks for taking your time and feel free to question me. I won't bite you, though!

<3 nina

hey nina. i'm around your age, so i thought that some imput from someone near your age might help a bit. i am 16, and have been suffering from depression for years. i don't even really have that much advice to offer you. i mean, i have a therapist. actually, i've had quite a few over the years. and none of them have managed to work wonders in my life. but i don't know, it's almost like i didn't even expect them to be able to do anything. i've been told my whole life to think positively instead of negatively, but it's so hard to do when you've done it so many times and all that happens is that you are dissappointed. for years i have tried everything imaginable to find someone to talk to who understands, and KNOWS from personal experience what i'm going through. i would talk to my friends, and they would tell me that they understood and then would go on explaining how they felt and i would realize that, no, they didn't understand what i was saying. in my years of dealing with this, i have come to the realization that it would be an incredibly rare thing to come upon a person, phsically, who i can identify with. that's one of the reasons i like this forum; because it's a bunch of people who all feel trapped by the fact that no one they know understands them. i have become so apathetic and just unenergized by everything. i sleep literally more than half the day. i'm basically sleeping my life away. which i think might almost be for the better. i hate being a teenager. i looked forward to it so much when i was little. and now i would do anything to just skip over these years of my life. i can't seem to get happy. and i can't seem to let anyone in. i just stopped telling people things about my life that were personal because i figured there was no point when none of them would understand, and many of them probably wouldn't even care.

like i said, this probably didn't even help any. but feel free to reply again, i check this thing fairly regularly

Hey,
Nina, you already know a little about what i've been going through because you posted in my thread in this forum, but there's a lot that people don't know.
I personally will not say that I completely understand what you are going through, because I don't. I can stay that I can understand some of it though because I too have depression, have for many years now (I'm 16 now, I started to become depressed when I was still really young, like probably around 5 or 6). I have seen my school counselor once and that's because I was sort of forced to on the last day of school this year. I was happy that I talked to her though because it did help.
You know we are all here for you if you need to talk. We will do our best to help you out as much as we can, but remember, you don't always have to take out suggestions, it's your choice.
*hugs*
I'm always here for you if you need me.

~Jamie~

Hey none,

Well, it didn't help but thanks for sharing. I'm appreciated that you posted on here. But sorry for not saying lots of words because right now, I have a bad day but your story made me feel a little better when I read yours. I love reading sharing stories. I realized that I am one of them like you, though.

gremlingirl14- We can talk about that through the messenger- my yim scn- sezlicious08@yahoo.com I am currently on.

Thanks for sharing and posting.
Love you tons.